Discussion guilt

[immolation]

I've felt so guilty lately about my suicidal ideation. Does anyone else feel like this? I literally never cared before, but something about recently is making me feel like a huge selfish asshole for wanting to die. I feel like a waste of life and resources for not getting it over with sooner. I just wish I never existed so I didn't have to go through this suicide bullshit. I'm making myself wait a few months so I know I really want it but it's so overwhelming sometimes. Occasionally a small moment makes me rethink but I'm always suicidal again by the next morning.

 

[orvreader]

I feel the same, and I still feel selfish sometimes, but ultimately we should be in control of at least one thing in our life, right? Being in control of our own death would be nice to have.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

The guilt is definitely about other people. I feel guilty for sticking my family with a messy apartment and the school/team with a high school wrestling season. I feel guilty over all my family invested in raising me.

But I'm sure I don't want to live on. I really can't, I cringe at everything. I'm scared of everything. I can't even go to the grocery store. Planning ahead beyond drive-thru meals seems like some impossible challenge.

I want to hang myself tonight but I know there's a 99.9% likelihood I just go to sleep and suffer through tomorrow too.

 

[maylurker]

yeah when i tried to open up to my close ones they said that im selfish for this

 

[Defenestration]

Guilty not about what i think but about if i die my parents and my sister

 

[Realog11]

I've felt so guilty lately about my suicidal ideation. Does anyone else feel like this? I literally never cared before, but something about recently is making me feel like a huge selfish asshole for wanting to die. I feel like a waste of life and resources for not getting it over with sooner. I just wish I never existed so I didn't have to go through this suicide bullshit. I'm making myself wait a few months so I know I really want it but it's so overwhelming sometimes. Occasionally a small moment makes me rethink but I'm always suicidal again by the next morning.

Yeah I feel so guilty and I become sad about it. Even eating I feel guilty about it or if I spend my money on myself

 

[itsgone2]

I can't even go to the grocery store. Planning ahead beyond drive-thru meals seems like some impossible challenge.

I'm doing this too. It's awful.