Help Greetings to everyone, some help would be highly appreciated.

[DeathPhysiology45]

Hello everyone, I'm a 20 year old guy, I've been studying in the university for almost two years now. Somehow life has changed a lot in these past two years, I seem to have everything but I feel empty, I always start thinking that life has no sense because you will die sooner or later, no matter what you do, so why do I have to stay here dealing with life If I will die anyway, I don't really care about life now, that's why I'm here, to ask for help. I don't really tolerate pain, and I wouldn't like to make my family deal with the idea that I committed suicide, so I need something that doesn't cause me any pain and also to make it look like an accident or something that just happened.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

If you find something that doesn't cause any pain and also looks like an accident please let us know! That said, I'm sorry that you're struggling. I've found that facing the possibility of, researching and even planning suicide can help it shrink to more manageable proportions than fighting against it, which makes it grow to larger proportions than it may merit, and allows for things to arise that it may have been blocking until it received attention. I've seen so many on here experience powerful revelations in this way, and I've experienced them myself. I hope you have a positive experience here and can work through whatever you need to.

In the pinned Resource Compilation, there is lots of information about various methods. Unfortunately, there is no megathread for the specific type of method you seek. The only painless non-violent method I know of is N (nembutal). Suicides that appear accidental are often car crashes or CO. The former can be detected in an autopsy, car crashes are painful and risky, CO is difficult to pull off if using the charcoal method and, if survived, carries risks.

 

[Anonymoussn]

I've found that facing the possibility of, researching and even planning suicide can help it shrink to more manageable proportions than fighting against it

Yep, this resonates with me so much. I planned everything and ordered my SN and it arrived over two months ago and I have been so much happier since. Literally all I could think about for months before that day was CTB. Then when it finally arrived it was a huge load off my mind. Which is weird because my health issues have got worse in that time. But I think that the reason for me is I know that if my health issues get to a certain point which is completely intolerable I have that way out. Whereas before it was this incredible sense of impending doom knowing that might happen and I would have no way out and would have to live through it. I suppose if someone had deteriorating mental health issues, or a deteriorating situation in their personal life this could be comforting as well to know that they have options.

 

[DeathPhysiology45]

If you find something that doesn't cause any pain and also looks like an accident please let us know! That said, I'm sorry that you're struggling. I've found that facing the possibility of, researching and even planning suicide can help it shrink to more manageable proportions than fighting against it, which makes it grow to larger proportions than it may merit, and allows for things to arise that it may have been blocking until it received attention. I've seen so many on here experience powerful revelations in this way, and I've experienced them myself. I hope you have a positive experience here and can work through whatever you need to.

In the pinned Resource Compilation, there is lots of information about various methods. Unfortunately, there is no megathread for the specific type of method you seek. The only painless non-violent method I know of is N (nembutal). Suicides that appear accidental are often car crashes or CO. The former can be detected in an autopsy, car crashes are painful and risky, CO is difficult to pull off if using the charcoal method and, if survived, carries risks.

I was thinking to use apple seeds, I've heard they contain cyanide, but I don't know if there's an specific amount of seeds or weight to accomplish my goal.

 

[AvaAdore]

I had been thinking shallow water blackout might be painless and could appear to be accidental.

 

[DyingAlf]

A longer term option.... Take up climbing as a hobby then, once you are skilled enough to do so, climb a very high & sheer rock face & "forget" to clip your carabiner to the safety rope/harness. Can't guarantee painless but should be quick & may be believed to be an accident.... now I think of it, maybe I should try that.... nope I'm too lazy!

 

[Soul]

I was thinking to use apple seeds, I've heard they contain cyanide, but I don't know if there's an specific amount of seeds or weight to accomplish my goal.

Here's a link to the resource compilation:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/resource-compilation.3/

There have been a few discussions of how to use seeds/kernels for their cyanide content. If you don't find the topic quickly among the resources, try using the forum search gizmo.

I'm sorry you're pondering such things, but I hope that helps.

 

[DyingAlf]

I was thinking to use apple seeds, I've heard they contain cyanide, but I don't know if there's an specific amount of seeds or weight to accomplish my goal.

I seem to remember that was a storyline in a Famous Five or Secret Seven book. Not suicide obviously but one/some of them got ill or something & there'd been too many apple seeds in their salads (?)
I vaguely remember researching it & finding it to be extremely unrealistic because you'd have to eat hundreds? Or thousands? of seeds.

oops... Soul posted something much more helpful while I was typing!