Goodbye

[glitchgirl]

I'm doing it today I can't cope anymore. I'm so fucking angry with myself and I have no lkajsjddnff f FUCK EVERYBTING AND EVERYONE IM NOT Preparing I'm just going to down it in water

 

[WornOutLife]

Please, plan things carefully so that you don't suffer permanent brain damage or something like that.
Anyway, hope everything goes OK and you can find peace soon!

 

[opiatedreamz]

please be careful with what you do. don't make yourself suffer any more than is necessary. i wish you well on your journey. peace and love.

 

[glitchgirl]

I don't have have anything to measure so I'm just going to put 3 tablespoons or something. I am going to make several batches so I don't fail

 

[Seiniar]

I second this. I'm preparing myself for ending my life keeping SN at home, so even if I don't decide a date but just do it a random day out of anger/sadness I still have a good plan. Anyway I hope for you everything goes as you wish.
Edit: good to see you are prepared

 

[woxihuanni]

I would second that impulsive attempt is not a good idea, but wish you peace if you will go ahead. No shame in giving it time

 

[Womps]

We urge you to take the time and follow the regimen OP, please take that seriously to be sure things go as smoothly as possible.. But if you are going through with it.. I wish you a smooth transition. You will be missed.

Just adding that if you need lent an ear, as always i am here if you need someone to talk to

 

[Cursed4ever]

I Dont Know What To Say
Long Tight Hug
Wish You a PAINLESS Travel Mate

 

[Quinlor]

be careful to not puking everything

 

[glitchgirl]

I'm not even bipolar, every few minutes I'm crying in the floor then I am angry. I take a mood stabiliser called lamotradgine, I can't get my medication renewed since mental health services busy due to covid.
I am about to take it now, mods please ban me if I am not online in 24 hours. (No family is aware of my account here) thanks everyone for the kind messages but I knew I'd die alone, which was my fear. I have some soft toys in my bed with me so I can try to relax although I'm already breathing fast because anxiety

 

[HelloHell]

I would suggest against an impulsive attempt. Better to take time planning things through until you're sure
However, whatever you choose, I wish you a painless and peaceful journey. Good luck!
Just make sure you don't regret anything

 

[StuFin]

That's one way to get over SI - just get angry and say to hell with it all.

 

[Good4Nothing]

That's one way to get over SI - just get angry and say to hell with it all.

That's how I'll go out.

Goodbye, glitchgirl. Good luck.

 

[Womps]

I disagree, SI is indicative of hesitancy, I believe your not ready until you are at peace with your decision and method of choice. Noone wants to die in the hands of impulse.
Its my controversial take.. but i had to share my opinion. I think you have some time to live and find a smile again OP. Maybe for a short time maybe a long time. I just believe one should pass in pure peace and pure confidence

 

[Meditation guide]

Glitchgirl I wish you peace and joy. Sending my love to you.

 

[StuFin]

I disagree, SI is indicative of hesitancy, I believe your not ready until you are at peace with your decision and method of choice. Noone wants to die in the hands of impulse.
Its my controversial take.. but i had to share my opinion. I think you have some time to live and find a smile again OP. Maybe for a short time maybe a long time. I just believe one should pass in pure peace and pure confidence

For some people SI is fear of death, and even though it's what they want, they want to cease being alive, SI stops them from being able to take that step. It's the natural hard wired into us chemical fight to stay alive.

 

[glitchgirl]

Slight delay sorry
Hard to swallow so I can't chug it Weird ish aftertaste.
feeling hot and slight dizzy
Stomachache now
Sorry this annoying lady from housing officer won't put the phone down gosh

 

[Brackenshire]

Sending a big hug

 

[Meditation guide]

Sorry this annoying lady from housing officer won't put the phone down gosh

You are on the phone with a lady from housing authority while you do this?

It's probably best to tell her you are busy now and lie down.

 

[glitchgirl]

I can't drink it all it too salty I'm going to take some co doamol with it 30mg what happens if I can't drink it all
I take 4 pills
Ok weak now
I hang up on her

I can't drink it all it too salty I'm going to take some co doamol with it 30mg what happens if I can't drink it all
I take 4 pills
Ok weak now
I hang up on her

I'm too hot I hate this

 

[Meditation guide]

what happens if I can't drink it all

How much of it did you drink, half of it?

 

[StuFin]

How much of it did you drink, half of it?

She didn't have a way to measure it properly so it could be any amount. I hope you're not suffering glitchgirl, if you change your mind call for help.

 

[Deleted member 14177]

Oh, I wish you comfort..

 

[Deleted member 22650]

I wouldnt do it impulsively, to me it seems that you are in need of help, follow the guide it only takes 48h and i pretty much garanties you a peaceful exit, 48h isnt that much in the grand schemes of thing, also impulsiveness usually makes you do stupid things, be sure of your decision and most importantly never tell anyone before you do anything as that that will reduce your chance of being successful by quite a lot and could leave you with permanent damage after all, which would only make it worse for you.

 

[Symbiote]

Farewell glitchgirl. Leaving life is hard, but once you transition, it'll be peaceful thereafter.

 

[Quinlor]

so, is he just going to die?

 

[glitchgirl]

Chest hurts a bit
I hear heart beat in my eairs and face
I'm going log out now I am struggling to keep up
I'm sorry for rushing this if I am back I failddg
I am scared my chest feel heavy
I'm on fire ear pulse sound
I love you all and I'm sorry again for impulsive g

 

[Silver]

Call 999 if you've changed your mind

 

[Deleted member 19654]

It's okay to call for help if you change your mind

 

[Meditation guide]

Bye Sweetheart hope you are ok.