First and most importantly, my dear friend, @316, passed away on October 2nd. I would like to use his real name but he didn't mention if he wanted me to say that here or not, so I will err on the side of caution. He was a very kind person who had suffered a lot, both with physical health issues and the circumstances that led him to take his life. I'm very sad for my loss and the loss of the people who cared about him, but I'm happy for what he gained in return. He found the peace he was looking for.
316 reached out to me during a particularly difficult time, and almost instantly, we clicked. We had very similar circumstances that we were facing in our lives, where we felt trapped. Whether we talked about those circumstances or lighthearted things, everything felt so easy. And for the very first time in my entire life, I met a friend who truly understood me and my way of thinking when it came to illness and suicide. Eventually we decided to talk on an encrypted messaging service so we could talk to each other more easily, and we talked to each other almost everyday.
I knew of his plan, and he told me that he wanted to help others on the forum know that he ordered N from D to the UK and that if I didn't hear back from him, that it very likely worked, and it's been 5 weeks now. As much as I miss being able to talk to him, it's safe to assume that he's gone.
316 reminded me of how valuable friendships and platonic love are, and I'm so grateful to have met him. I'm grateful that he helped console me, and also that he said that I helped do the same for him.
316 loved hip hop music and told me about a song that stood out to him a lot. It's called Survivor's Guilt by Dave. If you'd like to listen to it as a way of remembering 316, please do so. I'm sure he would appreciate it. Mods, he did tell me that he wanted his username to be crossed out so if you could please do that he would have appreciated it.
I was originally supposed to let SS know soon after his passing, but I was in the hospital with a really bad injury that day, where I had to be sedated. I hope he can forgive that but I'm sure he would have understood.
I hope this doesn't read as strange, I'm still having difficulty putting it all together. I think it might be best to divide this into two parts, so I will make another post detailing the aftermath at another time. It is relevant to this post, but I don't want to hijack a memorial thread for my friend with the story of what happened after.
Rest in peace 316, I know we'll see each other again. I hope you're much happier now.
316 reached out to me during a particularly difficult time, and almost instantly, we clicked. We had very similar circumstances that we were facing in our lives, where we felt trapped. Whether we talked about those circumstances or lighthearted things, everything felt so easy. And for the very first time in my entire life, I met a friend who truly understood me and my way of thinking when it came to illness and suicide. Eventually we decided to talk on an encrypted messaging service so we could talk to each other more easily, and we talked to each other almost everyday.
I knew of his plan, and he told me that he wanted to help others on the forum know that he ordered N from D to the UK and that if I didn't hear back from him, that it very likely worked, and it's been 5 weeks now. As much as I miss being able to talk to him, it's safe to assume that he's gone.
316 reminded me of how valuable friendships and platonic love are, and I'm so grateful to have met him. I'm grateful that he helped console me, and also that he said that I helped do the same for him.
316 loved hip hop music and told me about a song that stood out to him a lot. It's called Survivor's Guilt by Dave. If you'd like to listen to it as a way of remembering 316, please do so. I'm sure he would appreciate it. Mods, he did tell me that he wanted his username to be crossed out so if you could please do that he would have appreciated it.
I was originally supposed to let SS know soon after his passing, but I was in the hospital with a really bad injury that day, where I had to be sedated. I hope he can forgive that but I'm sure he would have understood.
I hope this doesn't read as strange, I'm still having difficulty putting it all together. I think it might be best to divide this into two parts, so I will make another post detailing the aftermath at another time. It is relevant to this post, but I don't want to hijack a memorial thread for my friend with the story of what happened after.
Rest in peace 316, I know we'll see each other again. I hope you're much happier now.
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