Goodbye rant to my body when I CTB.

[The anhedonic one]

Dear body,
We have been together for so long now, yet it is time for us to part company forever.
No longer shall I have to feed or water you, nor piss and shit, nor belch and fart ever again, you revolting flesh prison meat sack.

You have been a reasonably good body, yet the brain part of you is fucking shit.
You have really let me down brain, and have tormented me for far too long. So therefore I bid you good riddance, you pathetic lump of dysfunctional matter.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Oh bless. I do this kind of thing, except I see my body as a kind of entity I need to apologize to and protect.

Like- I'm sorry for what I did to you- eating too much processed food, not exercising enough. Plus- I'm sorry that we're stuck here in this world. Our various jobs have been tough on us- giving us physical pain, mental stress and no doubt screwing up some of our organs with chemicals. But hey- don't worry- I've got a plan to get us out of this mess before you fall to bits completely... It's going to hurt a bit initially but after that- we'll be free!

 

[The anhedonic one]

Oh bless. I do this kind of thing, except I see my body as a kind of entity I need to apologize to and protect.

Like- I'm sorry for what I did to you- eating too much processed food, not exercising enough. Plus- I'm sorry that we're stuck here in this world. Our various jobs have been tough on us- giving us physical pain, mental stress and no doubt screwing up some of our organs with chemicals. But hey- don't worry- I've got a plan to get us out of this mess before you fall to bits completely... It's going to hurt a bit initially but after that- we'll be free!

Oh god yes, I used to feel this a lot when I was younger. But I'm feeling so broken now that I just view the body as a prison cell that I need to escape desperately.

 

[lilohsuu]

Wen youre going to cbt? (If you haven't already been)