Going to apptempt hanging

[thatguyakira123]

I can't take this fucking family anymore. My abusive brother tried to kill our puppy just becuase he was barking while my brother was studying. He picked up a thick piece of ply wood, the one used for posts and I intervined with a cement tile in my hand ready to hit him if he hurt that puppy.


As always my mom sided with him becuase she's a pussy. We go into it hard. I went to the road to get somwone to beat him up for me cuz I can't instead they gave me a beer and said god will handel it. Realized that my mom will never go to the police to deal with him and she will always ask me to make the sacrifice or blame me just to save her ass from his wrath. So here I am trying to get someone to talk to me and help me, only to have No One.

So fuck it. I know its impulse and I'm only mildly drunk but fuck it. Hope it actually fucking works.

 

[15dec]

Sorry to hear about your family situation, things are definitely difficult for you right now, sending you hugs. Is there any way you could remove yourself from that situation, moving out maybe?
As for the decision to ctb, you shouldn't do it on impulse. I'm not pro-life or anything obviously but in my experience if you haven't planned properly it's much more likely to end up with hospital trips/pain/health problems, etc.

 

[thatguyakira123]

Well I failed again. But this is like my 3rd attempt. Every time I attempt it I get less nervous. I was too much of a pussy to drop so I decided on trying to choke myself on the rope. But everytime I felt weak I stood back up like a fucking pussy. I was also afraid someone would hear me.

 

[15dec]

Well I failed again. But this is like my 3rd attempt. Every time I attempt it I get less nervous. I was too much of a pussy to drop so I decided on trying to choke myself on the rope. But everytime I felt weak I stood back up like a fucking pussy. I was also afraid someone would hear me.

I've had five attempts, two by partial suspension. The survival instinct is hard to defeat, try not to beat yourself up over it. I kept standing back up as well and I couldn't get enough pressure on the artery either.

 

[Faen]

Call cops on your brother for animal abuse or something, if thats possible? He sounds like a complete dick

 

[GeorgeEastman]

I can't deal with dogs. I wouldn't hurt them, but I'd have to go where they are not.

Too loud and they make unexpected movements, often toward me. Not a pleasant thing when you're on the end of your mental and nervous rope.

 

[Dead_Inside]

I can't take this fucking family anymore. My abusive brother tried to kill our puppy just becuase he was barking while my brother was studying. He picked up a thick piece of ply wood, the one used for posts and I intervined with a cement tile in my hand ready to hit him if he hurt that puppy.


As always my mom sided with him becuase she's a pussy. We go into it hard. I went to the road to get somwone to beat him up for me cuz I can't instead they gave me a beer and said god will handel it. Realized that my mom will never go to the police to deal with him and she will always ask me to make the sacrifice or blame me just to save her ass from his wrath. So here I am trying to get someone to talk to me and help me, only to have No One.

So fuck it. I know its impulse and I'm only mildly drunk but fuck it. Hope it actually fucking works.

Fuck. I am so sorry. Fuck this life.... who would try to do that to a puppy?
I am sorry that's all that life has given you. Seriously fuck this place.
Please just be careful. I can understand in my own way how you feel- but just be safe. This life is cruel, don't let it hurt or maim you worse ....

 

[piratemaverick]

I can't take this fucking family anymore. My abusive brother tried to kill our puppy just becuase he was barking while my brother was studying. He picked up a thick piece of ply wood, the one used for posts and I intervined with a cement tile in my hand ready to hit him if he hurt that puppy.


As always my mom sided with him becuase she's a pussy. We go into it hard. I went to the road to get somwone to beat him up for me cuz I can't instead they gave me a beer and said god will handel it. Realized that my mom will never go to the police to deal with him and she will always ask me to make the sacrifice or blame me just to save her ass from his wrath. So here I am trying to get someone to talk to me and help me, only to have No One.

So fuck it. I know its impulse and I'm only mildly drunk but fuck it. Hope it actually fucking works.

Hey pm me if you need an ear to rant to. I've been where you are for so many years

 

[thatguyakira123]

Call cops on your brother for animal abuse or something, if thats possible? He sounds like a complete dick

I sent in a report and got a recipt for it. This is the 4th time he's been reported. The other 3 was when he tried to kill me, when he asulted my dad and when he argued with my mom.