going back home

[CaliguIa]

Im leaving this rotten city. I should have done it before but I was trapped here. Going back home for the sake of my mental health because spending one more day here alone is unbearable. Not sure if Im going for healing or to die. Not sure if I want to ctb yet, the idea is very appealing but I must be sure. There is no place like home to die. Im so weak, I dont want to be alone. I wish I could die in my bed with SN (dont have it) but hanging in the woods is also a good option. I dont want my mother to find my corpse blue. I need to talk to someone, its the only one that can help me unstuck. That conversation could save my life or send me to the cemetery. Anyway the choice is only mine. I just want to rest.

have a good night or day yall

 

[rainwillneverstop]

bump as it was accidentally posted in the incorrect subforum

 

[SVEN]

Best wishes for things working out, in whichever way.