Going away

[Suicidalastronaut]

I'm hoping today will be my last.

Just saw my therapist, pretended that I was okay.

I'm sick and tired of this shitty world doing everything it can to destroy me.

I'm going to head to Walmart to buy a rope. My anchor point is only 5 feet off the ground but I can probably position myself in way where the blood flow will stop flowing into my head. I'm going to use benadryl and alcohol to sedate myself so it'll be a lot easier.

No one will likely check on me until midday monday. Not that anyone really cares about me anymore at this point.

I'm legitimately living in a black mirror episode where the only escape is to off myself. I'm tired of doing this so I will be putting an end to it.

 

[haihaihai]

hey, i hope you find peace.

 

[Suicidalastronaut]

hey, i hope you find peace.

So do I. I just tested the loop and it works. Started to feel woozy after a few seconds. I think this is going to work.

 

[haihaihai]

So do I. I just tested the loop and it works. Started to feel woozy after a few seconds. I think this is going to work.

That's scary. I know i'm an hour late & you've probably left by now, but I wish only the best for you and the journey ahead of you.

 

[Suicidalastronaut]

That's scary. I know i'm an hour late & you've probably left by now, but I wish only the best for you and the journey ahead of you.

The SI kicked in but I'm leaving the noose there. It works. I tested it. I'm sure I'll eventually use it. Just need a bad enough day. It only takes 30 seconds of courage before being rendered unconscious

 

[haihaihai]

hey, i'm glad you're able to stick around a while longer.snd thsnk you for sharing your incite!

 

[nintendo64]

I'm doing hanging for my method as well, I've tested it and it doesn't seem so bad. It's all over quickly. I'm so sorry you've gotten to this point, I hope you can feel peace with whatever you decide.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[Suicidalastronaut]

Still haven't done it yet but I keep practicing. It definitely cuts off my blood flow. I think it needs to be longer so I can do it on my knees. It'll get tighter when I go unconscious and collapse.

 

[Suicidalastronaut]

I'm going to see if I can do it tonight. Gonna use a longer piece of rope so I can comfortably go on my knees while it squeezes my neck, Ill fall down when going unconscious which should make it even tighter. All I need is 30 seconds of courage.

The ground will be holding most of my weight so I won't risk breaking the anchor point and failing

 

[denali]

I'm going to see if I can do it tonight. Gonna use a longer piece of rope so I can comfortably go on my knees while it squeezes my neck, Ill fall down when going unconscious which should make it even tighter. All I need is 30 seconds of courage.

The ground will be holding most of my weight so I won't risk breaking the anchor point and failing

hope your still with us if you need anybody to talk to my dms are open although after 1pm ill prolly be drunk or high ash lol

 

[CatLvr]

I hope you have found the peace you seek. And if you haven't, and are still here, that's okay, too. People here do care.

 

[violetforever]

i wish i could hang myself but i don't think i have much of a room to do it in. i hope your luck is better than mine

 

[Suicidalastronaut]

I tried to last night but there were no signs of losing any consciousness after 20-30 seconds. I'm going to try again tonight with some adjustments. I'm going to try every single night until I succeed

 

[CatLvr]

I tried to last night but there were no signs of losing any consciousness after 20-30 seconds. I'm going to try again tonight with some adjustments. I'm going to try every single night until I succeed

Bless you. Please don't be too hard on yourself. I understand wanting to leave this place but please don't do anything that will leave you worse off than you are now.

 

[Suicidalastronaut]

Didn't so anything last night for some reason but I am in complete agony today. Every breathe I take and every step I take is complete agony. Tonight could be the night.

I'm going to name my former employer and the specific department I was in before I leave. They're the reason why I am going to do this.

 

[Suicidalastronaut]

Im so fucking drunk right now Im gonna give a shot my survival instinct is nonexistent right now.

 

[m1v]

Im so fucking drunk right now Im gonna give a shot my survival instinct is nonexistent right now.

Please be careful, I hope you find the peace you are looking for. If you dont feel completely ready yet, we are always here for you.

 

[BradGuy123]

How do you all test your anchor point to make sure it will hold your weight? The OP's picture looks to be a pipe that could carry water. That may not be designed to hold the weight of a person.