Giving up your morals to better kys

[StrawberryRed]

I was thinking about this, because I have found myself doing this frequently recently. I am Canadian, so I'm specifically talking about the upcoming election. I want Pierre Poilierve to win because I am hoping he would legalize the sale of handguns again and just generally lower gun regulations. For obvious reasons. This is despite the fact that he is a conservative, anti- immigration, pro-israeli etc etc. I dont mean to argue these points just saying that I wont normally wouldn't under any circumstance root for policies like that. I've been feeling kinda bad about this lately, does anyone else find themselves giving up their morals? Not just politically, I mean generally at all.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Fuck Pierre! I hate that dumbfuck!

 

[Namelesa]

I would say the only moral I have that killing myself would go against is that I would be leaving my pet dog. I consider myself to be his mum so a good one wouldn't abandon him but I know he would still get good care from my other family members and so I don't think I would be a terrible person for ctbing. I don't have attachment to my family as I think they are evil for trapping me and preventing me from suicide as much as possible so I would say killing myself would bring justice to them as they deserve to grief over my death. I have a strong attachment to my friend and while I do feel somewhat guilty for leaving him if I do kill myself, I wouldn't logically see myself as a bad person for doing that as I think people are allowed to leave each other no matter what (with the exception of a parent leaving their child) tho I may just think this way cus of the amount of people that left me suddenly and I mostly blamed myself for that and not the other person.

 

[isa_nqra1]

I was thinking about this, because I have found myself doing this frequently recently. I am Canadian, so I'm specifically talking about the upcoming election. I want Pierre Poilierve to win because I am hoping he would legalize the sale of handguns again and just generally lower gun regulations. For obvious reasons. This is despite the fact that he is a conservative, anti- immigration, pro-israeli etc etc. I dont mean to argue these points just saying that I wont normally wouldn't under any circumstance root for policies like that. I've been feeling kinda bad about this lately, does anyone else find themselves giving up their morals? Not just politically, I mean generally at all.

I mean I'm also Canadian and would like easier access to guns since it'll make cbt a heck of a lot easier.. Only issue it's quite hard to get guns and even still, it's not guaranteed since there will still be regulations so as long as you have a clean record you'd be able to get one. A far easier merhod for cbt I'm attempting right now is ordering SN and some antiemetics and painkillers since it'll be a painless quick death due to the painkillers and antiemetic numbing any pain or sickness. It doesn't require a lengthy process of getting a gun license and all that

 

[BreakBone2BreakBond]

If you're Canadian you can probably get away with screaming your head off in a police station or hospital about wanting to die and screaming about how your rights are being violated by being deprived M.a.i.d and I reckon you'll have the means to end it all by the end of the year.

Also we're sympatico on giving up morals, although when I made a little note I used the term values....In my notebook I wrote (not this concisely though) (I) I want to give up the will to power which is the silly notion that people like myself born at or near the bottom of society should in some WaltfuckingDisney way rise to a more respectful position in life. It's (the will to power) also any aspiration to help push the envelope in getting swiss style suicide clinics in my country which is unrealistic and a distraction to what can actually be done (namely enough self mastery to end my life which I really don't feel up to this year). (II) I want to give up the will to dignity which is simply the desire to die with some privacy (think suicide clinic) as opposed to publicly throwing myself off a cliff. (III) I want to give up this squeamish humane self regard and instead be able to meet the call to violently end my life. It goes without saying I'm not going to embrace violence towards anyone else other than myself.

 

[RosebyAnyName]

I'm the same way. This world has failed me so I don't care about it or anyone else anymore. If everyone wants to humiliate me and make me suffer, then somehow expect me to turn around and be their supporter, their political ally, etc., then honestly I'm not sure what they were expecting. People from all sides of the political spectrum hate me, so I have no allegiances anymore. If other people are allowed to be selfish, then I can be selfish too.

I'm getting my gun license soon, I was originally planning on a standard shotgun but if anyone can legalize handguns where I live then that's who I'm voting for.

 

[Forever Sleep]

That's interesting really. I suppose a lot of people vote for those who would likely benefit them the most- rather than thinking of the greater good. I'm not familiar enough with politics to know how oppressive his other policies are.

If anything, I'm actually trying to hold on to my morals as best I can. Even though suicide is on the cards. I suppose if I was that moral, I'd limp on till natural death but, I don't think I can manage that.

But, I want to wait for my Dad to go first before I can. That's my major consideration. I also don't want to leave the companies I work for in the shit so, I may try to have cleared my work schedules when I commit. I've pretty much consciously tried to lose touch with people so hopefully, there will be less to miss, and I haven't established new friendships/ relationships in order to lessen the impact- hopefully.

I also want to make it as least traumatizing for first responders as possible. So- I'll be trying to minimize mess etc. I have most of my affairs in order but I will try to make it as hassle free for those left behind as possible. I suppose I want to suicide as responsibly and considerately as I'm able. So, while it's still a selfish act, I want to consider others as much as I can.

 

[LURKMOAR]

There are ways of offing yourself that don't involve electing a fascist lmao. If you secretly want to sacrifice other people—especially minorities—just to more easily remove yourself from a world you are not going to participate in anyways, then you are a resentful chud, plain and simple.

 

[StrawberryRed]

There are ways of offing yourself that don't involve electing a fascist lmao. If you secretly want to sacrifice other people—especially minorities—just to more easily remove yourself from a world you are not going to participate in anyways, then you are a resentful chud, plain and simple.

I am a minority in several ways, I understand the problem. I am aware it selfish, immoral, and makes me a bad person, that's the point of the post haha. I'm not voting for him if that's the issue.

 

[nembutaldream]

I think that this is natural since as you become more inclined toward ctb'ing you start to become apathetic to everything - perhaps first, the course of your life. Then, your day to day living (this is when self-care might decline, addictions / substance abuse might take root). Finally, at some point you will stop caring about humanity in general or have some similar kind of sentiment and just want out of this hellhole.

 

[SovietSuicide]

Idk I wanna die in a gunfight tbh

 

[Epilogue]

Idk I wanna die in a gunfight tbh

That seems really EPIC. Going away in a Duel At High Noon kinda stuff is going to make you a legend.

I definitely want something that epic but probably going to be SN though.

 

[katara]

I'm the same way. This world has failed me so I don't care about it or anyone else anymore. If everyone wants to humiliate me and make me suffer, then somehow expect me to turn around and be their supporter, their political ally, etc., then honestly I'm not sure what they were expecting. People from all sides of the political spectrum hate me, so I have no allegiances anymore. If other people are allowed to be selfish, then I can be selfish too.

I'm getting my gun license soon, I was originally planning on a standard shotgun but if anyone can legalize handguns where I live then that's who I'm voting for.

I really sympathize with this, my demographic is hated by both sides. Sometimes I wonder how my life would've turned out if I was a boy. I have seen it's much easier being a man dealing with being lonely, a virgin, feeling ostracized, alone, ugly, etc. there's no place like that for women and I'd know, I've searched many times. After a while it feels useless because men won't accept me because I'm not one of them, and women are not friendly and many will attack other women just like how the men do. There's a place on Reddit that was making fun of women who are r*ped and harassed and the women were saying they wish they had to worry about being harassed. It made me feel sick, sure some of them might have been men hiding behind fake accounts, it just feels like in every community where being a virgin or having no friends is the topic there's more misogynists then people who actually want to improve or make friends. It makes me not feel sorry for these people anymore. I don't think it's right that there's so many assholes in this world and nothings being done to change that.