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Muri

dead and gone
Nov 6, 2018
43
I've had the supplies I need to ctb for a while now but i'm starting to have second thoughts... Not sure what to do at this point. I keep pushing back the date. Is there a way to know for sure if you're ready to ctb? Is there something I should do??
 
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Idorus

Arcanist
Apr 30, 2018
426
For now I would say, just enjoy the relief of having the supplies. You will know when you are ready, believe me. Do not force anything. Many would feel more comfortable having the means they can trust at home and because of it are able to extend their life for a while. It's humane logic.
 
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worldexploder

Visionary
Sep 19, 2018
2,821
You should be respected for any decision you make. Personally if I had the supplies I'd be gone tonight. But some people are comforted just by the fact that they have the tools needed. Makes em feel less trapped knowing that they could step out of this world at anytime.
 
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Cody111

Student
Nov 16, 2018
175
I got everything i need not long ago.
It is kind of a stress release knowing the option is there for when i need it, though something always seems to happen to give me hope for a few days. When your ready you will know. Dont force yourself to make a choice, it will happen naturally if it happens.

In the mean time.

 
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TiredHorse

Enlightened
Nov 1, 2018
1,819
I can only repeat what everyone else here is saying: Don't force yourself. Wait until you're genuinely ready. If having the means to ctb makes life more tolerable, take the gift of having a more tolerable life.

You can always catch the bus later, but it's not like you can make the bus go back and drop you off.
 
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