Forget hell in the bible being suicidal is the real hell

[FireFox]

Whether or not you believe in heaven or hell honestly being suicidal is closet experience to being in hell. I was raised Catholic to believe in a biblical hell but honestly I see being alive as the real hell.

24/7 I am constantly tormented by own thoughts, insecurities and fears. It's so scary how something natural like the human brain can easily use own thoughts, fears, traumas and anxieties to torment us relentlessly.

Absolutely nothing can give me relief from all the anxiety and depression that plagues my mind.

I have no future at 27. Its too late for me to meet a man. i will never ever be able to afford to study another masters degree subject again because student finance England only give funding once, my university place is no longer secure anymore, I will never have a career because employers dont like cv gaps and they don't want to train people. My entire life is never getting better

The man I love so much has many qualities I want in a man to me he is perfect. It absolutely hurts that he didn't want me. I will never meet a better man than him. He is so funny, intelligent, can be real sweet at times, he is so cool he has travelled and lived in so many countries. I really wanted to be his girlfriend and whichever woman gets with him she will be the luckiest woman in the world being loved and chosen by him. How I wish he chose me. Everyday I miss him and all the good times we had. I know I will get over him but in the present this pain just is so intolerable. Worst of all he doesn't even care about my existence as person and at times didn't even show me respect and was so cruel how he rejected me. He knew we were scheduled to go for coffee and 1 day before our outing he sends me half a page long text messages telling me why he is rejecting me and the reasons I am not good enough for him.

I am tired if men always rejecting me. I wish God made me someone else, a woman every man in the world wants ie a dream woman. When I was younger I wished I was beautiful like meghan fox's character in Jennifer Body because everyone thought she was beautiful. I am just average.

As my university place I have accepted its now gone. Losing my university place was just final straw.

Next week I am killing myself because I am tired of nothing ever working out. My life is 100% over its never getting better from here. All those things I have ever wanted is never going to happen. I will never be someone's partner and experience a man love me and want me, I will never have a career and I am always going to be loser.

Any time my life gets better it always goes wrong and I am sick of this. Life is a game and I am done playing. I have absolutely nothing to look forward too anymore. Everyone is in a relationshp except me, after 30 it's impossible to find a man. I needed it to work out with him.

My life is over and be fixed anymore. There is nothing for me in this world for me to stay anymore. I always struggled to fit in and never really found my place

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

Same, but as a 28yo man o7 With my terrible health all i can do as a last act of defiance is to kinda just always out fashion everyone, if im going to suffer until i die alone, i'll do it whilst looking cooler than all the assholes who get to be happy lol.

 

[kitia973]

Earth could just be the real hell of another planet.

 

[JustA_LittlePerson]

Like it or not hell is worse than anything that can happen here on earth. Unimaginably worse. "Have ye thought what it means to burn in hellfire? To writhe and scream in the abyss of fire and brimstone? That is the doom in store for all who are denied grace: the witch, aye, and the traitor, and the scoffer of the true religion, the mouther of blasphemous oaths, he who plays the whoremonger, and she who plays the whore, be warned! Even the silly girl, and many such be there who burns with thoughtless lust, will burn but in horrible agony forever! Forever and ever! The flame sears! It rends ye with such pains as ye have never known! Pity is eternal! Thirst torments you! And your mouth gapes wide, only to swallow fire!"

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Unpopular opinion, but the Bible is no different than the Odyssey. Pure myth. There is no heaven. There is no hell. We are indeed already experiencing the worst the universe has to offer. Our one in a trillion chance of getting to experience existent wasted on the shit lives we have.

That being said, 30 is the new 20. You have no reason to feel like you are lagging at the age of 27. You still have 1.333 decades before age is truly a problem for you. Try to capitalize on it if you can.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I think that the real hell isn't being suicidal but rather existence as a whole. The fact that every second there are sentient beings who are being ripped apart and screaming in pain either due to getting eaten by a predator or getting absolutely fucked by parasites is the real hell. The mechanism of existence itself sounds like the real hell to me. To me, being suicidal is just a by product of acknowledging that I'm in hell and that I want out of it.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

Hell is hell because there is no way out. This life cannot be hell because there is a way out, unless yor survival instinct hinders you.

 

[divinemistress36]

Im convinced Earth is Hell

 

[L'absent]

What I know is that this place is horrible... horrible.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I am in love with a man who does the 'on off' thing with me. He's there…..then he isn't. I know this is to do with his own head rather than mine and all I can do is choose how I respond to it. But when you really love someone, it's so damn hard.
I understand about the Uni thing. I got a useless degree in my youth and now I'd have to pay an absolute fortune to get another as the loan options will have been exhausted.
But 27 isn't so old, really. It's not the 1950s. As for the CV thing just say you went travelling. That's what I used to do when I had gaps on mine. These days it would be really easy to superimpose yourself on some photos/mock up some airline tickets as 'proof'.
Allow yourself time to heal instead of overthinking the 'only' solution xx

 

[human909]

I see Earth for me as hell and torture, there is no joy in life anymore none. Can't wait to ctb and get my life over with.

 

[Tortured_empath]

Never made sense with eternal damnation for suicide. And in Dante's Inferno with all those trees. I hope and pray there's stille a god, though.