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loveable_lamb

loveable_lamb

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Hey, daily update! I'm really tired and nauseous most likely cuz of my meds or emotions so today's post will be a bit shorter.

It was my first full day back in my dorm after being in the psych ward. I got a call that the mobile crisis team will discuss my situation on Tuesday and see if they'd be of any help. I'm glad that it'll be a while before they come over. I still don't need people sniffing in my ctb plans. I tried to order my H from DN today. It's my first time ordering from there so I feel like some hacker going through all the steps to place an order, but very thankful there's decent guides for that on this forum. I'm now waiting for my Kraken account to be verified (I hope it doesn't take too long) so I can buy myself some crypto. I'm stressing out about how long everything is taking though. Read somewhere that the Kraken verification can take up to 5 days and receiving my order will take around 3 days. Hoping nothing goes wrong in shipping. I don't have a set deadline yet but I'd say February 11th is the longest that I can wait to ctb so I'd better have my materials by then
 
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I wish you the best in plans, I hope that you find the relief you search for.
 
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Peter Skellern

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Hey, daily update! I'm really tired and nauseous most likely cuz of my meds or emotions so today's post will be a bit shorter.

It was my first full day back in my dorm after being in the psych ward. I got a call that the mobile crisis team will discuss my situation on Tuesday and see if they'd be of any help. I'm glad that it'll be a while before they come over. I still don't need people sniffing in my ctb plans. I tried to order my H from DN today. It's my first time ordering from there so I feel like some hacker going through all the steps to place an order, but very thankful there's decent guides for that on this forum. I'm now waiting for my Kraken account to be verified (I hope it doesn't take too long) so I can buy myself some crypto. I'm stressing out about how long everything is taking though. Read somewhere that the Kraken verification can take up to 5 days and receiving my order will take around 3 days. Hoping nothing goes wrong in shipping. I don't have a set deadline yet but I'd say February 11th is the longest that I can wait to ctb so I'd better have my materials by then
Getting on the DW is a trial. Getting XMR to then buy anything is another trial.
Getting on the DW is a trial. Getting XMR to then buy anything is another trial. Altogether hard work.
 
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loveable_lamb

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Getting on the DW is a trial. Getting XMR to then buy anything is another trial.
At least I'll have another skill before ctb... Also now that I think about it, the last skill I will learn in my lifetime is cooking heroin
 
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Peter Skellern

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At least I'll have another skill before ctb... Also now that I think about it, the last skill I will learn in my lifetime is cooking heroin
Why I'm looking at Oral Liquid Morphine. Far simpler.
 
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Why I'm looking at Oral Liquid Morphine. Far simpler.
I think the cooking will be alright. If a trembling addict can do it on a doorstep, I might as well be able to cook it up in my kitchen. I'm going for the rectal route
 
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Peter Skellern

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I think the cooking will be alright. If a trembling addict can do it on a doorstep, I might as well be able to cook it up in my kitchen. I'm going for the rectal route
Sensible. Needles can be complicated. Intra muscular is a doddle. IV looks far more difficult. Even nurses have difficulties.
 
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