Final dress rehearsal.

[Mariomcfly]

Like the title said I'm getting ready to do my final dress rehearsal.

 

[LastFlowers]

Like the title said I'm getting ready to do my final dress rehearsal.

For the funeral?
For when you CTB?

Or are you talking about a stage production?

 

[not_a_robot]

Like the title said I'm getting ready to do my final dress rehearsal.

uhh..."break a leg", as they say in the theater...

 

[Halo13]

When is the final curtain call? Best of luck - the show must go on!

 

[Mariomcfly]

Hey guys my final dress rehearsal went great. Now just to wait roughly 6 to 7 hours. My method is compression it went good pulled off when I felt that I was going to pass out. I won't lie I'm scared but ready. I'm afraid of what's to come and what my family will go through in the end I will no longer suffer. Hopefully I will see you guys in my final post.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

You've not been here for a long time. Would you mind to tell us a bit about you and your reasons for ctb?

 

[Mariomcfly]

No I haven't been here long a week maybe a little less. I'm just your average 25 year old I just don't know why I feel like this. I just hate the thoughts the take over my brain. I feel like I'm not progressing and life I'm just a waste of space. While I'm scared of the uncertainty the I'm facing living scares me a lot more. I found this site when I was googling suicide pact because I didn't want to do this alone. This site has given me the courage and strength.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

So you eventually don't plan a pact anymore?

 

[Egddios]

Hey guys my final dress rehearsal went great. Now just to wait roughly 6 to 7 hours. My method is compression it went good pulled off when I felt that I was going to pass out. I won't lie I'm scared but ready. I'm afraid of what's to come and what my family will go through in the end I will no longer suffer. Hopefully I will see you guys in my final post.

You and I, despite being on opposite coasts, seem to be on a similar time line. I estimate I've got about 2 days left before my "final performance" - ha. Dark humor.

My method is the 'night night' method and while I am scared of course, I recognize and realize, I accept this is it. I'll see my father tomorrow for the last time (though he won't know it, as I'm obviously unable to tell him my plans) and I will see my beautiful, sweet dog. I won't want to let him go, but this is my time; I can't continue to delay, hoping somehow someone, some psychiatrist will understand me, be willing to treat and help me with medication (Klonopin always helped me so much with my intense anxiety and panic attacks). I made it to 36 - much longer or further than I ever imagined. But I hang by a thread now, and the thread is rapidly fraying.

Peace to you.

 

[CelestialSky]

I hope that you can find peace (from a fellow 25 year old). Hugs.

 

[Mariomcfly]

So you eventually don't plan a pact anymore?

No my friend my time has come before I found someone.

You and I, despite being on opposite coasts, seem to be on a similar time line. I estimate I've got about 2 days left before my "final performance" - ha. Dark humor.

My method is the 'night night' method and while I am scared of source, I recognize and realize, I accept this is it. I'll see my father tomorrow for the last time (though he won't know it, as I'm obviously unable to tell him my plans) and I will see my beautiful, sweet dog. I won't want to let him go, but this is my time; I can't continue to delay, hoping somehow someone, some psychiatrist will understand me, be willing to treat and help me with medication (Klonopin always helped me so much with my intense anxiety and panic attacks). I made it to 36 - much longer or further than I ever imagined. But I hang by a thread now, and the thread is rapidly fraying.

Peace to you.

Will see you on the other side my friend. Be brave and May you find the peace you seek.

 

[Faraway1990]

My final act will be in just less than 2 weeks now. I don't know you're reasons etc but I hope you find the peace you seek. Much love friend make the right choice for you.

 

[Mariomcfly]

I hope that you can find peace (from a fellow 25 year old). Hugs.

Thank you.

 

[Halo13]

No I haven't been here long a week maybe a little less. I'm just your average 25 year old I just don't know why I feel like this. I just hate the thoughts the take over my brain. I feel like I'm not progressing and life I'm just a waste of space. While I'm scared of the uncertainty the I'm facing living scares me a lot more. I found this site when I was googling suicide pact because I didn't want to do this alone. This site has given me the courage and strength.

Hugs. Best of luck on your passage, I hope it goes smoothly.