Feelings of deep and unrelenting shame every single day

[Worthless loser]

I hate myself so much and I am so embarrassed to even be seen by others. I'm such a miserable failure. I wish I could beat the shit out of myself, but I am averse to pain. I get satisfaction out of imagining beating myself with a baseball bat. I deserve every horrible thing in life because of how badly I've screwed up and how worthless I am.

 

[Remember to forget]

Can I ask why you feel like you are an embarresment to be seen by others?

 

[BlackPoppet]

I hate myself so much and I am so embarrassed to even be seen by others. I'm such a miserable failure. I wish I could beat the shit out of myself, but I am averse to pain. I get satisfaction out of imagining beating myself with a baseball bat. I deserve every horrible thing in life because of how badly I've screwed up and how worthless I am.

I feel as though I've screwed my life up too. I really want to change, but feel like it's almost too late. Do you have anyone who you could discuss your feelings with? Hugs from me to you.

 

[Sweet Release]

If you are anything like me then you find yourself repeatedly apologising even when other people say you don't have too.
Its like I can imagine people shocked and angry reactions even when people don't react that way.

I don't know what you're history is but its never as bad as you imagine it too be.
When you are in a state of shame you can't imagine it being any other way but believe me you are never as bad as you see yourself.
Sending you a an online hug!