Venting Feeling really awful today.

[BitterlyAlive]

Why? I slept last night, I've been taking my meds, I made myself eat breakfast. Today hasn't been objectively bad... I just feel horrible. I feel so heavy, melancholic, and just want to cry. I wish I could just lay in bed under the blankets, but I can't. My dad had his gun out and I wanted to put it to my head, my body was aching for me to do it. God.

** Um, there was nothing dangerous going on. I saw the gun and had urges. I'm safe, sorry guys.

 

[potatostripes]

Hey, what is that with your Dad? Did he wanna stop your suffering or what?

I know these days. Sometimes the whole world just feels like too much. I know it's a weird thing to say but what helps me is thinking of how I could help others. Like actually have a good impact on their life (not just mowing the grass for my parents or something). Cause it takes the focus away from my problems and kinda opens a new side in me. Maybe that can help you :)

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Hey, what is that with your Dad? Did he wanna stop your suffering or what?

I know these days. Sometimes the whole world just feels like too much. I know it's a weird thing to say but what helps me is thinking of how I could help others. Like actually have a good impact on their life (not just mowing the grass for my parents or something). Cause it takes the focus away from my problems and kinda opens a new side in me. Maybe that can help you :)

Lmao, he was taking it with him but had it out for a moment. I'm helping babysit at least. Good advice though, because it's too easy to ruminate on personal issues.

 

[Nebby]

The days where you just feel awful for no apparent reason are the worst.

 

[noaccount]

Same

 

[Deleted member 14177]

Hugs, friend

 

[potatostripes]

Lmao, he was taking it with him but had it out for a moment. I'm helping babysit at least. Good advice though, because it's too easy to ruminate on personal issues.

oh lol I read that he wanted to put it to your head. That's why I was so shocked

 

[BitterlyAlive]

oh lol I read that he wanted to put it to your head. That's why I was so shocked

Whoaaa no, lol. I would be calling the police, not posting here

 

[potatostripes]

Whoaaa no, lol. I would be calling the police, not posting here

Yeah man. I didnt wanna judge or anything... but that would be pretty crazy

 

[BitterlyAlive]

Yeah man. I didnt wanna judge or anything... but that would be pretty crazy

You know what.... My post does come across that way. Uh, I should edit it.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

@BitterlyAlive these days are the worst. I hope it passes.