Feeling ready to go

[Fucking loving it]

I haven't been on here for months. I was feeling less suicidal. Now I've hit a wall. Me and my 13 try old son are homeless. My 10 year old daughter passed away 5 years ago on June 6th. My relationship of 8 years has ended. I can't stop self harming and I can't take it. I need to decide my method. It was full suspension, I don't know if I still want that. I'm an empty shell. It's time.

 

[TiredHorse]

Hello @Fucking loving it. I've been wondering how you've been --and I'm so very, very sorry everything has gone so sideways!

 

[Johnnythefox]

I haven't been on here for months. I was feeling less suicidal. Now I've hit a wall. Me and my 13 try old son are homeless. My 10 year old daughter passed away 5 years ago on June 6th. My relationship of 8 years has ended. I can't stop self harming and I can't take it. I need to decide my method. It was full suspension, I don't know if I still want that. I'm an empty shell. It's time.

I'm sorry this has happened @Fucking loving it I remember reading your posts back when I joined.

 

[Macc Lad]

what will happen to your son?

 

[omw/2/ctb]

I'm so so sorry for your situation, I can only imagine how broken you feel and how rough this has been for both you and your son.

 

[Fucking loving it]

what will happen to your son?

Family would take him. Idk if I can leave him tho...

 

[Lara Francis]

Family would take him. Idk if I can leave him tho...

I really understand as i am in the same situation. Hugs.x

 

[anon722]

wow i imagine that to be the lowest point a person could be i hope you get better or a peacefull exit

 

[Dead beat dad]

I haven't been on here for months. I was feeling less suicidal. Now I've hit a wall. Me and my 13 try old son are homeless. My 10 year old daughter passed away 5 years ago on June 6th. My relationship of 8 years has ended. I can't stop self harming and I can't take it. I need to decide my method. It was full suspension, I don't know if I still want that. I'm an empty shell. It's time.

I'm so sorry to hear your story friend. This sounds like such a harsh place to be and I can imagine that very few, if anyone can truly understand what you're going through.
I wish there was some way I could take away your pain and help you put things right. I know a message on a forum from a stranger will bring you limited comfort, but I want you to know that I honestly and sincerely hope you can find some light in this ocean of darkness and above all else I hope you can find a way to find peace.
Love and respect
DBD

 

[Retched]

Big hugs to you. I've been wondering about you, and I am glad to see your post. Life can be so cruel. I wish there was something magical I could say that would take away your pain. Just know that I'm thinking about you and I understand what you're going through.

 

[lynn14]

Same boat with regard to the kid question. I have family that could take my kids, in my weaker moments I feel alright with this. But I know that my kids won't be better off without me, which is the only thing really restraining me from ctb.