Feeling broken and torn

[Tomoe]

So I've been talking with a member on this forum for about the past two weeks. It was only a couple conversations but they were pretty meaningful. I just realized she probably CTB'd. I feeling so fucking empty and broken right now. It's a Friday night and I'm just sitting at my computer drawing, crying and blasting music. I'm suppose to be working on an assignment right now, but my minds a clusterfuck right now. Fuck life, I wish people didn't suffer so much.

Yes, I respect her decision, I'm happy for her, I wouldn't have stopped her either and I wouldn't have told her that I'd feel like this if she just left. But I still fucking torn right now.

 

[salvation]

must be hard being emotionally connected to someone and then having them die, I am sorry

 

[Jodes]

must be hard being emotionally connected to someone and then having them die, I am sorry

Thoughtful post maybe, but not much empathy, I think it deserves a bit more?!

@Tomoe , really sorry... it is hard to know what to say - I've certainly felt that here before. Maybe @salvation and I come across as cold because we just have a thick skin? I think I stopped letting stuff in as a kid but a few deaths here have affected me more than I expected, for people I basically didn't know. @Circles put it well in a post the other day, see if I can find it.

I'm sorry she didn't tell you :(

 

[salvation]

Thoughtful post maybe, but not much empathy, I think it deserves a bit more?!

Im aspie sorry I'm not good at saying my thoughts