Help Feel sad and rejected. No purpose in life

[suicidesheep31]

I know I won't kill myself by doing that. I just want to hurt myself with an light OD.
I don't know if someone is feeling the same but when I do an OD with medication it is just like a new birth, a new start. I reset all my emotions to 0.
I just want the pain going away.
How to deal with emotions when it hurts?
I should not complain, I am in DBT and just got kick out because I don't want to stop problems behaviors.
I have this luck to be in DBT, But, I still don't find any purpose in life.
I feel I am not belonging in this world.
I am a single woman who not deserve to be loved. I don't love myself, so no one can love me. I don't know what does it mean to love someone.
So, tonight, I will drink and just take the medication I have. And as i am weak and don't have the courage to kill myself, I will call again the emergency. And I will have the feeling to born again after waking up.
Tired to have to do this to decrease my emotions.
Sorry for people who don't have the luck to be in treatment. I don't deserve this treatment anyway because I am convince that death is the best for me.
Sorry for venting. It helps me.
Cheers

 

[WornOutLife]

No ODs here but I used to do something like that with alcohol. Drank lots just to feel better for some hours. The thing is that the hangover/withdrawal makes you feel worse so, I'm not gonna drink for some time.

I know loving yourself is very hard. I even hated myself some months ago but now I'm trying to see what positive aspects I have. There's gotta be something if you look for it enough!

I think you're somehow trying to move on because you're in DBT. I hope it helps you sooner or later.

Send you lots of hugs and love and remember, you're not alone!

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

How to deal with emotions when it hurts?

Exercise and distractions can work.

 

[suicidesheep31]

Exercise and distractions can work.

Yes, but it is not enough. When you stop exercise and doing distraction, it is coming back stronger

 

[mr.smileysad]

I know I won't kill myself by doing that. I just want to hurt myself with an light OD.
I don't know if someone is feeling the same but when I do an OD with medication it is just like a new birth, a new start. I reset all my emotions to 0.
I just want the pain going away.
How to deal with emotions when it hurts?
I should not complain, I am in DBT and just got kick out because I don't want to stop problems behaviors.
I have this luck to be in DBT, But, I still don't find any purpose in life.
I feel I am not belonging in this world.
I am a single woman who not deserve to be loved. I don't love myself, so no one can love me. I don't know what does it mean to love someone.
So, tonight, I will drink and just take the medication I have. And as i am weak and don't have the courage to kill myself, I will call again the emergency. And I will have the feeling to born again after waking up.
Tired to have to do this to decrease my emotions.
Sorry for people who don't have the luck to be in treatment. I don't deserve this treatment anyway because I am convince that death is the best for me.
Sorry for venting. It helps me.
Cheers

Feel free to vent as much as you want, That's what this site is for. I'm sorry you feel like nobody can love you, if I could I would give you a big hug. And I know saying this won't help but I know it may not feel like it but you deserve every good thing you get.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

When you stop exercise

N-nani?!?!