
enduringwinter
flower, water
- Jun 20, 2024
- 364
Facing some very scary prospects come July which I fear enough to make me plan to CTB.
But I also fear all the pain and panic that come with CTB. I don't have access to benzos and I fear the moment when physical pain, discomfort, SI and inevitable regrets kick in.
Everything is horrible. I just don't feel ready to live or die. If only I could be put down with N.
But I also fear all the pain and panic that come with CTB. I don't have access to benzos and I fear the moment when physical pain, discomfort, SI and inevitable regrets kick in.
Everything is horrible. I just don't feel ready to live or die. If only I could be put down with N.