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Ivan181

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Dec 23, 2024
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Been dealing with chronic pain in my neck and upper back for the past 2 years the last couple months It's gotten completely unbearable it feel like my spine is being crushed the pressure I feel in my spine is torture. I can't even sleep for more than a hour or so before I wake up because my spine feels so uncomfortable. Recently I had a mri done and it showed I have ligament damage in my cervical spine and I likely have it in my upper back too. I've tried every non surgical treatment from pt to chiropractics, upper cervical chiropractor, steroid injection, and inflammatory injections, medications, prolotherapy and nothing has helped to heal my damaged ligaments. I'm not eligible for surgery and even if I was I can't wait any longer I need to ctb asap I seriously can't take it anymore and my pain continues to get worse by the day. I'm completely fucked If I fail.
 
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FuneralCry

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That sounds so horrible and torturous, I see so much cruelty in how there's all this extreme suffering in existing but anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the freedom you wish for.
 
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Ivan181

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Dec 23, 2024
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That sounds so horrible and torturous, I see so much cruelty in how there's all this extreme suffering in existing but anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the freedom you wish for.
I'm also staying at a homeless shelter it makes everything so much worse since I can only lay down 8 hours a day and I can't get my neck comfortable on the cots they supply
 
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It's sad when you feel like you can't fail. It puts enormous pressure on you and on top of that you have to endure excruciating pain.
 

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