Venting failed fsh

[november445ll]

i got put in the ward (just got released) for a very long time, got to see psychiatrists and such, and theyre suspecting i either have bpd or schizophrenia, alongside with some sort of neurodivergencey, which will be tested for in a few weeks. i am still tired. very fucking tired. i cant handle the muscle and nerve problems i have in both legs, my t1d and narcissistic family members. ive been holding out for so long, and the fact that it took an attempt (that almost worked!) to get me "help" is embarrassing. i dont want treatment. no more appointments. i need to desperately ctb atleast by tomorrow or tonight. ive found a secure vertical bar i can hopefully do partial with, legs out type of stuff. if anybody has any tips, they'd be greatly appreciated. thankyou.

 

[NiicheKey]

I don't have tips, but I know that partial is hard to do in terms of staying still while trying to pass out, so you may be caught. I'm sorry it happened like this; this world is truly awful. If you have energy and don't mind, how your FSH felt like? In terms of passing out, SI and pain management? Again, only if you want to. Sending kindness

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from suffering.

 

[BreakBone2BreakBond]

In for FSH feedback too...

 

[november445ll]

I don't have tips, but I know that partial is hard to do in terms of staying still while trying to pass out, so you may be caught. I'm sorry it happened like this; this world is truly awful. If you have energy and don't mind, how your FSH felt like? In terms of passing out, SI and pain management? Again, only if you want to. Sending kindness

heya, of course i dont mind!! sorry for late reply. i took a shit ton of benzos before hand, so i was already on the brink of falling asleep, i was in a deep depressive episode so i just didnt care too much (emotionally) in general. I dont remember alot after i passed out. I only felt pain for a good 10 seconds due to the rope being pretty thin and digging into my skin.