Venting Failed attempt made my life unbearable

[hauntyoueveryday]

For context, I tried to kill myself on January 16th and I got out of the hospital about a week later. Ever since then, my life has been a living hell. Everyone looks at me weird and nobody even treats me like a human being as much as a case they have to deal with. They are trying to put me on lithium and they are in the process of diagnosing me with what they think is bipolar, which if they try and treat me they will make me dull and boring and stupid. I really see no reason to continue living.

This has also shown me how little some people care about me. My family just ignores the safety plan I was given and isnt even really doing anything from preventing me from doing it again. My quality of life in the hospital was marginally better than it is at home.

 

[itsgone2]

Everyone looks at me weird and nobody even treats me like a human being as much as a case they have to deal with.

I'm so sorry. This must be awful to deal with. It's still a stigma for sure.

 

[finaldestination22]

I followed your original post since this is my method too. Did you find out in the end how did you manage to call the cops on you? It must have been before you passed out right since you only worke up at the hospital after.

Sorry to hear about this it sucks indeed it's not even the method that failed

 

[hauntyoueveryday]

I followed your original post since this is my method too. Did you find out in the end how did you manage to call the cops on you? It must have been before you passed out right since you only worke up at the hospital after.

Sorry to hear about this it sucks indeed it's not even the method that failed

They never told me, but I have to assume it mightve been an SI thing. If I ever have the opportunity to try this method again I will leave my phone somewhere else

 

[violetforever]

oh i remember your earlier post

Everyone looks at me weird and nobody even treats me like a human being as much as a case they have to deal with

my family treats me like this after only having a mental breakdown. i cant imagine how they would treat me after an attempt.

My quality of life in the hospital was marginally better than it is at home.

i hope you can get away from there however you choose to.

 

[Ligottian]

They never told me, but I have to assume it mightve been an SI thing. If I ever have the opportunity to try this method again I will leave my phone somewhere else

Travis apparently didn't have much SI. Just his gun had run out of bullets.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

I remember that night, too. In addition to SI, I think CO can cause confusion, which could also result in trying to get help. If you aren't sure, you could check your phone activity from that date to see if there were any outgoing calls or texts. Another possibility: I don't know much about metadata, but someone else said they got a wellness check after taking SN, and they said it was because someone here got their location from the metadata from a pic of SN they posted. For this reason, I'd be wary of posting pics unless you know your location is disabled, or know how to remove metadata before posting anything.

 

[madwoman]

I'm so sorry. I had a failed serious attempt at a young age which changed my life and didn't speak some of my family and got put back in the system but that was a long time ago. I haven't seriously attempted since but I did have a really bad mental breakdown that led me to the psych ward and got diagnosed with bipolar. I needed the pills to bring me back down (I had psychosis) but going back to my regular life was so effing hard and I was in a very dark place. Everyone had a hard time knowing what to do with me afterwards. Both times I was in a psych ward and felt better there bc I was with others who had mental health illnesses and understood what it was like. Whenever reality sets back in, it's hard. I got put on lithium and hated it so I switched to lamictal and it's much better. So if you do try meds, sometimes it is trial and error and I don't feel dull or like a zombie with lamictal. Some meds can make you feel that way though but can be helpful for some. I feel like most people that don't have mental illness don't know how to act around those that do - I hope things get better for you or you can at least give yourself some grace you just went through a lot & it's takes a bit to process it all.