Venting Everyday I climb to the roof to practice partial

[Lordsudbury]

I've set up the ligature, dog leash with slipknot and even curtains to prevent neighbours from seeing. Everyday I go up to the roof several times to practice the partial hang. It feels like it will work.

Am I ready to say goodbye to the human experience [My present human experience]? The finality of all actions. No goodbye or relief, just inexistence, to free myself from the burden of depression and weight of the emotional spectrum, to restore myself to the time before I was conceived.

I isolate myself to increase the effects of depression so I can finally pull the trigger.

But is it right?

 

[aanonymous]

hey
whats your anchor point and how have u tied to it pls?

 

[Lordsudbury]

The anchor point is a clothesline that is basically made out of metal that has hoops on the top for the lines. The clothesline is cemented into a giant cement block on the floor. Its a dog leash so there is a sort of clip on one end of it that would get clipped to a dog harness or collar; the leash is 6 feet long and I wrap it several times around the top so as to make it shorter for where my head is.

 

[Ghost2211]

I'm sorry to hear you're suffering so much. If you ever need someone to talk to about randomness you can reach out. I'll spare you the pro life bs since it's clear you desire to go.