Ever wondered why the movie keeps playing even after experiencing a really bad scene?

[hemonpath]

Not the most concise of titles, but yes. I had to go through something truly embarrassing (unrequited love situation) , as the universe loves to do with me and I literally sat staring at a mirror for some seconds waiting for the scene to cut to black and switch to the next day.

God there's this frustrating 'hole in the gut' feeling I have right now that is true acute pain and it's so bad it's almost exquisite.

I opened my window and NOPE NOPE NOPE. Spontaneous stuff like that is definitely not my thing. Too much of a coward. EDIT: (I'll need to calmly work my way up to that and look into methods and cheese. Whatever. )

God I hope any one of you gals and guys are having a better day than me. Shit.

Sorry for my French.

Fuck.

 

[brighter]

yeah i get you. the pain hits you out of nowhere. to be honest with you, you'll catch the bus when you're ready, any attempts before that and you'll duck out last minute. I've had a belt around my neck 7 times and i've loosened my grip on it just as i can feel myself losing my breath. I hope you find a way to stop the pain. And tell me :)