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willitpass

willitpass

Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
Mar 10, 2020
3,219
I'm getting hit with a lot of emotions right now. Anticipatory grief for myself. I haven't been able to cry in weeks. I've been numb. Right now I'm crying. Crying about the good things I'll leave behind. The amazing people who I love and who love me. Crying about the pain I'll be causing. Crying about the things that mental illness stole from me throughout my life. Crying because this isn't the way I wanted things to go even though I've known it would be the way things would go for years now. Life is unfair. Life is a bitch.
 
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Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

Your friendly neighborhood suicidal wolf girl
Jun 12, 2024
290
I'm so sorry. 🫂
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,345
I haven't "known" you long but you are one of the good ones. One of the people this world will be a lesser place without you in it. I will be the first to admit that I don't want you to go. But ... How selfish is that of me?? I could NEVER ask you to remain here one second longer than you absolutely have to given the pain and suffering you have already endured??

The fact that even with all the pain you are in you worried about those you will leave behind is a testament to the good, kind person you are. I am honored to call you a friend and will miss you when you are gone, but I will also be happy for you. Happy that the last time you close your eyes you can rest easy and KNOW you fought the good fight; that you TRIED everything (like your sig line says); and that you don't hurt any longer. THAT is more than worth any pain I will endure from the loss of you. Be at peace, my friend and know you are loved, whether you think you are worthy or not (and for the record, you ARE worthy). 🥰🥰🥰
 
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hoppybunny

hoppybunny

Fearer of the Future
Jun 26, 2024
199
I hope you find peace in whatever your choose
 
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JustAStory

Member
Aug 30, 2024
12
I'm working on my recovery, but I sometimes open this board just to read your posts.

A couple of times I thought of writing something to express how deeply touching some of your posts were, but I wasn't able to.

I'll just say that my thoughts are with you.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,723
The anticipatory grief line hits hard. I've been feeling this since I joined the site, and I know it will only get stronger as I get closer to my end. Life IS incredibly unfair. The unfairness is absolutely overwhelming at times.
 
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