Drugs and suicide

[Rose190021]

Does anyone get high or drink and feel so good in the moment but your still questioning suicide in the back of your mind. It's almost a funny idea. Then the thoughts get worse when your coming down from your "high?" Does drinking or doing drugs make you feel better or worse?

 

[Ruffian]

Better in the moment, but worse in the long run I'd say.

 

[uiop]

Does anyone get high or drink and feel so good in the moment but your still questioning suicide in the back of your mind. It's almost a funny idea. Then the thoughts get worse when your coming down from your "high?" Does drinking or doing drugs make you feel better or worse?

I'm all about the drugs. It helps fill the empty void inside me, making ne feel good. What's your DOC?

 

[CoolGuy9]

I don't drink, but I feel like if I did, I would turn into an alcoholic pretty fast.

 

[Walilamdzi]

Not really, nothing makes me feel good. I've had a glass of whiskey twice the past week, to try and relax a little, but it didn't help. I've never had a positive experience from drugs.

 

[myrtaryniel]

I spend most of my day smoking weed and high on anxyolitics, and lately it's all I do because I can't bear to be 100% conscious all the time. I have suicidal thoughts all the time but weed makes me chill (which alcohol does not, that's why I barely drink except in very desperate times) and it makes me able to think about it without feeling so much like shit. I guess to some level it encourages the fantasy too. That's the fucked up thing, it prevents me from doing it at specific times but also makes me wanna do it even more because I know they're fucking up my life.

 

[Sick Boy]

Everytime i take clonazepam all my depression and anxiety goes away,i feel happy and i feel peaceful,my suicidal thoughts go away
but at the nex day i want to ctb again

 

[dandan]

I stopped smoking weed for like 5 months now, but I realize its not helping either, so I smoke a little yesterday...
the idea to ctb seemed so overwelming, incredible how far I've got... damm
I didnt wanted to smoke weed , but hell,,,, im thinking of killing myself, what the hell some weed?

 

[Dead beat dad]

Worse worse worse.
I've been to some awful places with drugs, but I was always thinking about suicide before they were on the scene.
For me the suicidal thoughts will always play on your mind no matter what you're under the influence of, just drugs in the right amount can take the edge off. Ironic in a way.
For me being drunk cranks up the feeling of wanting to CTB enormously and I avoid that stuff like the plague (also even in small amounts makes me fall asleep in ridiculous places).
Peace
DBD

 

[Gina]

Does anyone get high or drink and feel so good in the moment but your still questioning suicide in the back of your mind. It's almost a funny idea. Then the thoughts get worse when your coming down from your "high?" Does drinking or doing drugs make you feel better or worse?

TBH drugs made me so damn depressed, It contributed to my depression.I wish I never started smoking, but we can't go back in time.I like to drink, but I binge drink.

 

[Broken]

Better in the moment, but worse in the long run I'd say.

I'd agree with this. Haha if only I could bottle that confidence you get whilst on cocaine I wouldn't be depressed.

 

[HelpPlease]

Drugs destroyed me

 

[Psilo]

I'm thinking about maybe getting high on Datura, this would definitely make me in the mood of killing me. Datura trips are intense, and can kill if ODed, but the dark side of it is kinda appealing to me.

 

[Xaphous]

I had a psilocybin trip the other day, I've had them many times before and it was great but this was a bad and depressing trip. Saw demonic fly things in my mind, then when they were gone the visions were just lame and shit in general. All I could think was I wish I was never born over and over. Done nothing for depression.

 

[SadGirl]

Does anyone get high or drink and feel so good in the moment but your still questioning suicide in the back of your mind. It's almost a funny idea. Then the thoughts get worse when your coming down from your "high?" Does drinking or doing drugs make you feel better or worse?

Sometimes it's good for me, sometimes it's bad, it's a shot in the dark.

 

[secoma]

Does anyknow know which benzos and what amount of them can make us fall "unconsious", not just asleep. Unconsiousness I want to fall into.

 

[Feline]

I love Weed and MDMA.

 

[uiop]

Does anyknow know which benzos and what amount of them can make us fall "unconsious", not just asleep. Unconsiousness I want to fall into.

If you're trying to OD on benzos, it'll be difficult, if not impossible. For Xanax, I believe you'll need 1,000x pills of 1mg. Not worth it IMO.

I love Weed and MDMA.

ECSTASY!!!!!! They were so good back in 2008, all because of the cuts. The pills these days just makes me lethargic.

 

[valentine]

Drinking is the only thing that stops me from thinking about suicide, honestly. It makes me feel genuinely happy. Benzos are pretty great too since I have such severe anxiety, but unless I take a lot I still think about suicide.

 

[Broken]

Drugs destroyed me

Snap

 

[FauxEmotions]

I smoke marijuana everyday and it doesn't help nor do damage... just stops my brain.... which I guess I could make an argument as helping. Being that it doesnt do anything to combat my brain though I say it's neutral. As far as psychedelics, I've always used them as a palette cleanser. I've never been this "dark" before though so I'm scared to try psychedelics. My baseline before has always been search for the Light/good in things so psychedelics were awesome to reset. Now, my baseline is so dark I think the psychedelics would just drag me further into the darkness.

 

[RainAndSadness]

I'd agree with this. Haha if only I could bottle that confidence you get whilst on cocaine I wouldn't be depressed.

Coke makes me feel so good about everything I even feel euphoric towards death. No joke.