Dont know where my life is heading

[ar.fweo]

Everytime I wake up i get reminded of how much of a failure I am, my parents are very nice to me especially my mom but deep down ik how much they hate me, im so tired of living.....im a failure as a son,student everywhere i always am the joke of the circle....i dont wanna open up to anyone.im just tired of waking up and looking in the mirror and seeing my ugly face, I wish I could just end it all without feeling any pain, this world has only brought me pain and misery, not even in my own life do I feel like the main character. I had 2 failed attempts mainly because my body rejects it...wish there was a way to end it without feeling any pain...ik I will always be a bum but maybe in another life..