Does your subconscious try to make you stay?

[siray]

I have been thinking of CTB most of the time nowadays, it has given me some peace considering the fact that I know a few people who might help me buy a shotgun, and I am pretty sure I will be able buy one in a few months as I have already started talking to people and it looks like there's hope.

I have always felt dead inside most of my life, no joy, anxiety over my appearance and a crippling melancholy that has encircled me all my life. I get incredibly sad over trivial predicaments and it makes me miserable.

Lately I have felt this indescribably surreal force in my dreams that's trying to make me feel some real emotions.

I don't remember much from last night but this girl dressed in black held me and walked with me and it felt more real than any kind of love I have ever experienced in real life. It's impossible for me to describe this feeling, cause I am finding myself at a loss of words, it was the most amazing feeling ever. I can't even remember her face.

This sounds cheesy, but I felt complete in that moment, you know? Like I could spend a lifetime on earth feeling happy being with her because she just loves me so much and puts her head on my shoulder while walking (that's all I remember from this dream).

TL;DR : Last night I had a dream and felt truly loved.

Can anyone relate?

 

[Ch92921]

Yes, its annoying. But I believe I will overcome it.

 

[21Neberg]

I had quite the opposite happen to me last night - I dreamed about running off with my ex, and when I woke up to the loneliness all I could do was cut myself. Interesting start of the day, to say the least.

 

[Redt2go]

I have been thinking of CTB most of the time nowadays, it has given me some peace considering the fact that I know a few people who might help me buy a shotgun, and I am pretty sure I will be able buy one in a few months as I have already started talking to people and it looks like there's hope.

I have always felt dead inside most of my life, no joy, anxiety over my appearance and a crippling melancholy that has encircled me all my life. I get incredibly sad over trivial predicaments and it makes me miserable.

Lately I have felt this indescribably surreal force in my dreams that's trying to make me feel some real emotions.

I don't remember much from last night but this girl dressed in black held me and walked with me and it felt more real than any kind of love I have ever experienced in real life. It's impossible for me to describe this feeling, cause I am finding myself at a loss of words, it was the most amazing feeling ever. I can't even remember her face.

This sounds cheesy, but I felt complete in that moment, you know? Like I could spend a lifetime on earth feeling happy being with her because she just loves me so much and puts her head on my shoulder while walking (that's all I remember from this dream).

TL;DR : Last night I had a dream and felt truly loved.

Can anyone relate?

Yeah when you're depressed your dreams help you regulate the emotional distress you're in. Yes, alot of times mine comfort me