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ireallywasnttogopls

ireallywasnttogopls

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Oct 8, 2023
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I was standing there with the rope and I knew itr would be better for me to die in everyway but I just couldn't do it , I would take my feet off but hold my self up with the shelves

I think I was scared of the pain and what happens in the afterlife
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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Sounds like we had the same morning. Yes, it hurts your neck a lot.
 
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Worndown

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Mar 21, 2019
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Those who were saved say it did not hurt, just felt the pressure.
If it hurts, what was the reason?
 
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LastLightFade...

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Jan 12, 2026
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I mean, it feels like you're being choked, so yeah, it is painful. I've tried full suspension, almost died until I got a hold of something nearby (barely). I prefer partial suspension so I can have a greater chance of getting out of it unless I go unconscious.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
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Those who were saved say it did not hurt, just felt the pressure.
If it hurts, what was the reason?
Say you have the rope high and tight, knot in the back, fabric between it and your neck. Textbook. When you weight the rope it's still gonna twist and tear and bruise and make things in your neck pop into different places. It's awful.
 

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