indeed, it calms me more than any med could (including benzos, which just made me numb and sleepy).
sadly my family doesn't like it at all when i drink, even though it's hardly noticeable when i'm drunk, they don't want me to become an alcoholic I guess, which is understandable. I haven't drank in a while because of that. I'd feel really bad about it but I could consider drinking without them knowing again.