Does anyone feel like hikikomori?

[DivineSpark]

If you dont know what hikikomori is.

Hikikomori - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

 

[rainw3rld4ngel]

i mean some of us literally are its not really something you just 'feel like'

i guess the phrase 'NEET' is more common outside of japan (but also a broader term)

 

[DerezzMyself143]

I was living as one since COVID started. When it started to fade and the opportunity arose... I prefered to hide. Five years living like the social outcast that I am. Wasn't until very recently when I finally decided to slowly reintroduce myself to society after a moment of recovery but... it's too scary. They will never accept a freak like me. They see myself and the ones with my condition like complete demons that should be erradicated from this world. Maybe they're right. Maybe I should do them a favor and ctb.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Finally I have a word for my pain. they call it PSTD, but also its meaningless for them. So long as I know Im happy.

 

[PrismHon]

I've always considered myself adjacent to them. I do have a job but I don't go out at all and do not have friends.

I used to live in Japan and I actually bought a couple of issues of a hikikomori newsletter, which was like a collection of articles from different hikikomori.

 

[NonEssential]

Used to be for the past 3 years, but I went back to school this year.

 

[DivineSpark]

Used to be for the past 3 years, but I went back to school this year.

was it easy to become social again?

 

[getoutgirl]

Been in and out of that lifestyle because my family would get pissed or sad or worried so I put on the act just fot them. Months in my room in total darkness and the screen tho? Yeah done that. It's a safety cocoon that replaces he otherwise overwhelming emotional pain of reality for a more slow, quiet and corroding pain that slowly eats and numbs you, like a leech that injects anesthetic venom as it drains you. It's also in simpler terms a miserable state of existence in the long run. Total shit. Not living, surviving for nothing.

I was living as one since COVID started. When it started to fade and the opportunity arose... I prefered to hide. Five years living like the social outcast that I am. Wasn't until very recently when I finally decided to slowly reintroduce myself to society after a moment of recovery but... it's too scary. They will never accept a freak like me. They see myself and the ones with my condition like complete demons that should be erradicated from this world. Maybe they're right. Maybe I should do them a favor and ctb.

That takes tremendous effort and the world is not often kind to those who struggle. They are not right on that and imo you shouldn't favour them in the slightest. If you were to die they don't deserve that being for them. That's my opinon. But I get how hard it is and how exhausting. hugs your way <3

 

[Goodfornothingbish]

I was for 4 months. Drove me insane. Now I have friends again and I feel like I am getting better.

 

[Dark Moon]

I'm pretty much like this and have been for a long time. I just exist I'm not really living. I do want to come out of it and perhaps go back to education and/or find work before I die but I don't really have the support to do that.

 

[LittleMagician]

If you dont know what hikikomori is.

Hikikomori - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

Yeah

 

[8leveloquenfrn4evr8]

Absolutely. It seems like it isn't that bad from the outside but it is horrible. It takes a toll and after a certain point it is impossible to ever hope to function as a normie ever again.

 

[soledad.virgen]

i used to be one for like four years, it's very much like dying in slow motion. i got out of the neet/hikkimori life this year by going back to college, but i feel like an orphan from my lack of a social life in my early 20s, it's hard to make friends in college when ur in ur mid 20s. sometimes it feels like people can clock that i want to die though, maybe i just give off like "wow that person won't even be here in a year why would i talk to them" vibes hhh. and hopefully they are right

 

[cme-dme]

If I didn't have a job I probably would be >.< when I'm not working I'm in my room pretty much the entire day...

 

[Custos]

Yes

 

[cme-dme]

Been in and out of that lifestyle because my family would get pissed or sad or worried so I put on the act just fot them. Months in my room in total darkness and the screen tho? Yeah done that. It's a safety cocoon that replaces he otherwise overwhelming emotional pain of reality for a more slow, quiet and corroding pain that slowly eats and numbs you, like a leech that injects anesthetic venom as it drains you. It's also in simpler terms a miserable state of existence in the long run. Total shit. Not living, surviving for nothing.

Ugh...been feeling this as well >.< Ever since my car broke down I have been more isolated than I ever had been before...Its been about 7 months since then, pretty much all I do is work then come home and spend the remainder of the day in my room in the dark on my laptop :( I'm starting to feel what I think is the onset of the pain you speak of :( Its like a weight on your psyche where every day 1 lb is added to the weight and life just feels worse now >.<

 

[NonEssential]

was it easy to become social again?

I'm not exactly social, I just go and do what I'm told. Only social thing I do is ask the teacher for clarification if I don't understand something.

 

[anonymouswebuser]

If you dont know what hikikomori is.

Hikikomori - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

ever since the pandemic yeah
but lately I'm forced to go outside because by my family.

 

[maneose]

even though i don't fill the criteria.. (in school & have a job) and kinda do have a lot of people i can talk to, i tend to self isolate way too much and ignore anyone i can reach out too because i'm too exhausted to talk to anyone (it's been like a month since i've talked to alot of my friends that i speak majority online too). and when i am with my friends i feel really disconnected and just, kinda alone? idk i'm reaching out to my old middle school friend group which has made me feel less alone, but still i'm filled with guilt—like i don't deserve them. my sitting spaces definitely do feel like it's becoming NEET-ish, acrylic's/figures/plushies. i actually bought a happi so i could wear it around the house lol

 

[thereisnoneed]

I have been a Hiki for too long that i forgot a lot of my native language due to spending too much time on western internet with minimum social interaction I.R.L

 

[matchalavendercake]

i do for sureee

 

[Forever Sleep]

In terms of hardly ever leaving the house- yes. But, I do work (from home- obviously.)

 

[Amile]

Yes, i has been a hikki since a little before the pandemic so has been around 5 years more or less, around that time i had one of the biggest and most crippling depressive episodes and i stopped going to college althogether. Although i had 2 small periods of interaction with the world in between, one where i studied mostly virtually 1 semester before dropping out again in 2021, and another where i was in the ward for 1 week.
Since late 2024 and early this year i has started to go out to just walking so i'm not longer a hardcore hikikomori like i used to be previously, and also i will study a career in the college again.
After so long i feel totally detached from the world. legit i was impressed viewing how my own neighborhood has changed, viewing new buildings, how now there are that LED screens and neon flex everywhere and QR codes to buy, viewing the new cars that did not exist before i isolated myself, i feel like i just traveled in time after a very long dream that i cannot recap totally, the year 2022 and 2023 are ghosts in which easily i could have been in comma, if it weren't for my journals that seems to be the evidence that they actually happened they could be just made up years.
Althought i try to rebuild i'am not totally stabilized at all yet, and i wonder if i will manage to go though college again or how socially i will be while being an ill in their mid twenties, at least now i has a better therapist and i know that i am autistic so i guess i could maneage things a little better.

 

[darksouls]

If you dont know what hikikomori is.

Hikikomori - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

yes since my beloved female dog left me
she passed away in 2020
I miss her

 

[The Unanswered Q]

Have been one for five years, live in the middle of nowhere with no car, so basically stuck here.

 

[Apathy79]

I was a hermit for almost a decade. Lived miles away from the nearest neighbour. Also no car. Only interaction was supermarket delivery once a month, which was usually one word or a wave. I still would be if my house didn't burn down in the bushfires.

It's not easy to become social again after. But you get there eventually. There's weird parts like learning how to speak again. Who knew it was a skill? I found it helped to talk to yourself out loud a LOT if you want to keep that one. You also develop bad hygiene and cleaning habits because it's only you there and you don't have to interact with people, so you let some things go, which can be difficult to adjust back afterwards. Again if you're planning on doing this temporarily and eventually reintegrating, you'd want to keep on top of those things. I didn't expect to ever reintegrate so it wasn't an issue, but the world had other plans.

I must admit even now I am back living in a normal town alone, I still feel kinda like a hermit in some ways given how rarely I talk to people, but it's not the same thing.

 

[Dyingoportunity]

I've been a shut-in for as long as I can remember. Any time I've tried to be social people either ghosted me or said/did horrible stuff behind my back. It's only gotten more intense because my able bodied siblings are able to move on with their lives to some degree while I'm stuck.

 

[archiveofpain]

If it weren't for college then yeah, the more I interact with people outside the more isolated and disconnected I feel from them so I isolate even more out of inadequacy, it doesn't help that I live in the middle of nowhere with barely anyone to hang out so I'm basically stucked, it's really suffocating

 

[patheticparasite]

inadequacy

Thank you, that word describes me perfectly. I constantly have to second-guess myself when I'm outside. Doing that all the time is incredibly exhausting, so I only leave the house if I really have to, never just for fun because it never is.

 

[bankai]

Yeah, I live alone. I do go to work. I work from home most of the time, but they implemented a return to work policy that requires us to be at office for at least 2 days a week. I barely go outside. I order out for everything.