Does anyone else wonder if this life is real

[kk13]

Sometimes i feel like i made all this up in my head and that when i die everything in my mind will end as well. Nothing really feels real. It feels like im in a coma dreaming this.

 

[whywere]

I have had the same feelings on occasion.

I was reading a very interesting article about that this existence might be either a computer program or a piece of sand in the whole scheme of things.

I can say this much, there ARE different dimensions of time and space, and we occupy just a very small sliver of it.

Just like we use a very small portion of our brain's capacity, well can the same be said about our existence?

Walter

 

[junctionbox]

yeah sometimes. lately i've been feeling detached from reality, sometimes i feel like i'm playing the sims. :D
but i wonder what difference it makes whether this is real or not..? sometimes i think it really doesn't matter, this is as real as it gets and things do have meaning in the realm of this reality-or-not-reality we are in. like even if it was all a product of your mind, you can still consider whatever actions you take to be real, because why not ? i think it could matter in the same way that things matter in video games. sure it isn't real, but it's real enough to cause feelings and motivations and whatever else, so why not just consider it real.

i hope this makes even a semblance of sense

 

[kk13]

yeah sometimes. lately i've been feeling detached from reality, sometimes i feel like i'm playing the sims. :D
but i wonder what difference it makes whether this is real or not..? sometimes i think it really doesn't matter, this is as real as it gets and things do have meaning in the realm of this reality-or-not-reality we are in. like even if it was all a product of your mind, you can still consider whatever actions you take to be real, because why not ? i think it could matter in the same way that things matter in video games. sure it isn't real, but it's real enough to cause feelings and motivations and whatever else, so why not just consider it real.

i hope this makes even a semblance of sense

It does make sense but even the feelings don't feel real anymore. Nothing does. Plus idk why but it's comforting to know tgat my actions have no meaning.

 

[neverexistedd]

I think about it a lot, and sometimes I don't feel like its real, but I have no proof for that
I like to think this material world isn't the only world I would exist in

 

[junctionbox]

It does make sense but even the feelings don't feel real anymore. Nothing does. Plus idk why but it's comforting to know tgat my actions have no meaning.

it's a comforting thought for me, too. i think for me it has always been so that the dark feelings and thoughts seem more real, and any positive ones seem passing and superficial.
i'm sorry to hear that nothing feels real for you, even if there's some comfort there it's not exactly a soothing feeling. i would guess it makes it hard to trust anything or to care. i wish you could feel a little bit of something and for that something to feel real, because it's horrible to be all numb.

 

[juneisdoomed]

Sometimes i feel like i made all this up in my head and that when i die everything in my mind will end as well. Nothing really feels real. It feels like im in a coma dreaming this.

i've been feeling this a lot lately. like i'm completely separate from reality. i don't know if it's dissociation or what, but when it happens i look down at my hands and feel my face to remind myself that i'm present. i have to admit that it would be comforting if all of this was just made up in our heads.

 

[Endlichkeit]

Because this is indeed Brahman's dream, an illusion, nothing, it's made of nothing.

 

[Anthropos]

Doesn't matter if it's real or not if reality feels bad asf.

 

[prelapsarian]

sometimes i wonder if i'm already dead and this is my hell punishment

 

[Pluto]

 

[wishmaster9]

To me it feels like a cheap made The Matrix movie. You already know you're in some sort of simulation, but you only have one terminal way to get out, and while you're still in you can't fight the bad guys with superpowers, all you can do is try to stay alive until you can't anymore.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think because pain can be felt. It's difficult to imagine it away, it feels horribly real to me. If it's not real though- does that mean there is an actual reality out there? How would it be different to this? I suppose there could be a whole series of simulations. But then- if that is the case/ the norm- that is everyone's 'reality' so then- wouldn't that in fact be real? Can there be unreality without a genuine reality existing somewhere?

I do definitely think consciousness is weird though. That a baby creature is born here and develops a consciousness of its surroundings and of its self. And that presumably- had the circumstances been different. Had my parents not conceived me when they did, had I been born to other parents- I would be an entirely different person and likely, my experience of living would be different too.

 

[Jamesbond]

Sometimes i feel like i made all this up in my head and that when i die everything in my mind will end as well. Nothing really feels real. It feels like im in a coma dreaming this.

This 100% is my life. I believe the only way to escape it is to die and push through the barrier. Nothing makes sense to me at all anymore. There is no help from any services in the uk, even when I'm honest about my ideation. I've attempted overdoses in the past only to have my stomach pumped and been sent home the next day with no support, I had seizures a lot about 3 years ago and lost my speech, and within 3 days I was sent home, 3 months later I received 2 letters on the same day. One was offering me speech therapy, and the other was to cancel it. I feel like this world is a simulation that I have to break in order to find some sense of peace.

 

[wannabeangel]

nothing feels real to me either, ii am just a spirit trapped in this flesh suit in the 3D realm when i am meant for more than that, more than this dimension and more better things than this pain. its just another realm i ended up in, i dont remember if i chose this or not, or its a soul lesson. im sick of lessons

 

[Chocomel]

Lately I've been watching videos about probability. About what is possible to happen in this universe. The video at first was just explaining probability of what could happen inside Minecraft. But then it goes out of the game. The video say there is a very small small small and they mean small chance that when you boot up Minecraft, sun ray or something could change the game code and binary. Making the game not Minecraft anymore, it could change to be The Sims, or GTA, basically anything is possible, even the games that aren't even released. All that theoretically could happen. Not only changing games, but they also said that it is possible when you boot up Minecraft, your PC turn into gold. Such a rare occurence but it is theoretically possible. From that point onward, my sense of reality crumbles because well, if anything can just spontaneously changing, what even is the real thing? The fact that it is possible for me right this second to just obliterate by pure chance is mindblowing. I don't really know the detail of how this atoms changing works, but I always think about it now everytime I can.

 

[thehorizons]

I'm having this in the strongest way possible. I'll give you some context, a couple years I became naturalized in a country I considered more of a home than my home country, my dating life was starting to improve, my social circle was expanding, and I found I had a recognizable talent for a new hobby I picked up. Moreover, last year I found my purpose in life – I was to go back to uni, do my Master's, visit my friends from time to time, get a car, get a partner, continue on with my passions, etc.

I've been a superstitious person (not so much anymore) and it sort of aligned with what the fortune tellers told me since I was a kid.

Then, suddenly, I fractured my fibula and had to return to my home country for surgery. This wasn't so bad of course because I was going to go back to the country I called home after the summer when I recovered from my surgery. Well, things didn't go according to as planned. I took a lose-dose of Ativan within an extremely short-term and bizarrely suffered from post-acute withdrawal syndrome from which I'm still suffering from. Never in my life have I been allergic to drugs, and I even took Xanax in the past before without any side effects. Compounded on top of that I recently discovered that I may have actinic cheilitis (I'm not sure the extent of the damage yet), which I'm confident the biopsy will confirm in the coming months. I'm in my early 30s and no one in my family has skin cancer, but the symptoms completely fit. Logically though it may because my immunity has been taking a beating from the post-acute withdrawal syndrome or it may because I spent a good year smoking shisha in my teens. Who knows?


I truly feel that my life has been stolen from me, and that I'm literally in a nightmare that I would never ever have forseen. I'm beginning to accept it now and I'm on the path to reclaim my agency, which is to return to my adopted country, say goodbye to my friends, and die there but finding a relatively peaceful means to do so.

Still, I believe in superstitution despite that my faith has been thrown into question. I don't know anything about pseudoscience like fortune telling anymore, but there have been supernatural moments in my life. This has led me to believe that all paths are constructed and designed, but the one I envisioned was designed to be an illusion. It could karmic justice for something I did in my past life/ I don't know. It's all too coincidental.