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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I have multiple traumas and haven't felt the same since 14, however I felt okay prior to age 23. I'm truly completely shut down with no motivation or emotions
 
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jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
508
I don't feel alive anymore
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,430
I feel like my enjoyment of things is completely gone. Like I am in a zombified state. Only thing I can do is eat, because SI won't allow myself to starve.
 
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CommitSudoku

never interfere with a lifespan reaping
Feb 12, 2022
524
More recently yes. At some point I became aware how my brain has just stopped creating memories in many cases and I can't care enough to do anything about it. I used to try to do my best to remember all the details I could about people, now I forget simple things sometimes as soon as I'm told. I go back and forth from being too emotional and numb these days, and I barely feel like a human, I wish I had left while there was more of me left. It's horrible feeling like I'm decaying while still alive.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Yeah, I can't plan anything or think beyond the moment I'm in. It's too frightening. All I can do is ruminate about the past and every one of my delusions and mistakes. Childhood neglect will fuck you up.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I don't feel alive anymore
That's what I feel too I feel dead no emotions at all. My family is expecting me to stay alive because I'm completely dysfunctional at this point although I work I can't see the joy in life anymore
Yeah, I can't plan anything or think beyond the moment I'm in. It's too frightening. All I can do is ruminate about the past and every one of my delusions and mistakes. Childhood neglect will fuck you up.
Yes it's really awful. I am completely empty and beyond traumatized
 
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TakeMeBack07

TakeMeBack07

Failure
Jan 16, 2022
128
most of the time, i either feel nothing or shame and whatever that brings with it (i think every other negative emotion stems from that?). i've started experiencing small moments of laughter and enjoyment though recently.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
most of the time, i either feel nothing or shame and whatever that brings with it (i think every other negative emotion stems from that?). i've started experiencing small moments of laughter and enjoyment though recently.
I'm happy for you that you're experiencing laughter and enjoyment
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,433
Kind of, I just feel so tired of it all and I just want to be gone. Nothing would ever take away the feeling of emptiness, in a way it is like I have already died. I do not live, I just exist.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,117
No, my brain hasn't shut down. It's filled with a constant bombardment of thoughts of how miserable I am on a minute-by-minute basis. With all that going on, there's really not much room in there for anything else, but hey.
 
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Slimetae

Slimeent🎲
Apr 23, 2022
211
I mean I think negative things all day which drains my energy so I would say the emotional part of my brain is shut down cause I don't feel shit but the occasional headache.
 
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fatefulstillness

ghost.
Oct 24, 2021
151
I have depersonalization/derealization disorder. It takes a shameful amount of effort to find my thoughts, locate memories or feel a thing; it all shuts down in different variations and I don't really think there's much I can do about it. I'm never out of it.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,881
I feel like my enjoyment of things is completely gone. Like I am in a zombified state. Only thing I can do is eat, because SI won't allow myself to starve.
My thoughts exactly, starting my 4th month now
 
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mojabaka

Student
Apr 20, 2022
100
Yes. I was diagnosed with POTS and small fiber neuropathy after taking the "vaccine". Which means that my nervous system was basically destroyed. It like I'm living in a nightmare 24:7 for the past 11 months. Like this is not my body. And I'm tired of doctors telling me to get used to it. Never!
 
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