These are not necessarily positive things, but more like trying to get some "justice" (which is impossible) against the massive number of people who severely abused me. I'd also like to die in debt to stick it to The Man, big corporations/capitalism, etc lol. So I need to spend money, and yet don't give to many fucks about material things except being able to lie under the covers while on benzos. Speaking of benzos, if I'm going to ctb anyway I'd like to do them very heavily and also do opioids. It's like I have a "reverse" bucket list of things I'd like to do that are risky or harmful. Do you have any similar plans?
