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Salting the wounds

Salting the wounds

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Dec 2, 2024
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I've been a drug addict for 8 years, I dragged my whole family down, my mother tells me crying to this day that I ruined her life.
my brother hates me.
I had psychotic outbreaks and all I do is lie around all day thinking that the best thing would be to leave this world.
I don't have a reliable method to do it.
Could I reverse the situation in some way?
Could my mental health improve?
The drugs have affected him so much that I can't solve simple mathematical calculations, much less work.
I even feel like I have no feelings, as if I am in a psychotic state.
 
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What you been using ? Heroin?
It's absolutely possible to get out but it's not easy, you need rehab especially if it's an opiate

And double especially if you've been shooting. Once you're in that psychosis state from years of abuse of opiates like heroin or fentanyl the only way you can really be saved is by seeking out the help
 
Salting the wounds

Salting the wounds

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Dec 2, 2024
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What you been using ? Heroin?
It's absolutely possible to get out but it's not easy, you need rehab especially if it's an opiate

And double especially if you've been shooting. Once you're in that psychosis state from years of abuse of opiates like heroin or fentanyl the only way you can really be saved is by seeking out the help
cocaine, I haven't used it for two years, now I'm dealing with the aftermath.
 
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if you feel like the cravings are gone and you can live without it i'd suggest you seek medical help and be honest about your condition.
once you've accepted that and made a game plan how to do this you're already halfway there

You should look into detox and behavioral therapy.

why are you on the forum? do you want to leave? how would you do it?

What do you mean? im here because im a miserable lowlife and I like the community of people who feel just like me

Im not ready to kill myself but I have a handgun and hollow tips for the day im ready to go (which was ironically sold to me by my longtime friend who just killed himself about a week ago)
 
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Salting the wounds

Salting the wounds

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Dec 2, 2024
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if you feel like the cravings are gone and you can live without it i'd suggest you seek medical help and be honest about your condition.
once you've accepted that and made a game plan how to do this you're already halfway there

You should look into detox and behavioral therapy.



What do you mean? im here because im a miserable lowlife and I like the community of people who feel just like me

Im not ready to kill myself but I have a handgun and hollow tips for the day im ready to go (which was ironically sold to me by my longtime friend who just killed himself about a week ago)
Thanks for the article, I really have my doubts about whether the brain regenerates or not, I feel that the damage it causes me is irreversible
 
Salting the wounds

Salting the wounds

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Dec 2, 2024
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My mother is crying right now, I was given an amazing childhood, how do I deal with this? I'm a monster.
 
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Looking4awayOut

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I think you could reverse the situation
Have you ever tried therapy? Addiction usually comes from a place of not feeling good enough with yourself or with your life in general and if you talked it with somebody maybe that could help you overcome your issues with drugs someday in the future. Remember you're not alone. Many of us are going through similar stuff and are here to support each other the best we can ♡
 
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Salting the wounds

Salting the wounds

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therapy of all kinds and medications of all colors, nothing seems to help, I feel like a vegetable.
The worst part is that I used to be smart and could have had a promising life.
I hate drugs
I think you could reverse the situation
Have you ever tried therapy? Addiction usually comes from a place of not feeling good enough with yourself or with your life in general and if you talked it with somebody maybe that could help you overcome your issues with drugs someday in the future. Remember you're not alone. Many of us are going through similar stuff and are here to support each other the best we can ♡
 
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Looking4awayOut

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Well at least don't blame yourself for it. You didn't invent drugs did you? And by the time you started doing them you were probably way too young and naive to even understand the consequences they could have on you in the long run. I would encourage you to forgive yourself first and not hate yourself for the bad decisions you made in the past. No one's perfect afterall
 
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cocaine, I haven't used it for two years, now I'm dealing with the aftermath.
can take several yrs for ur brain to go back to normal after using coke daily or close to daily. wishing u all the best and i hope things will get better for you
 
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The body and mind both have a remarkable ability to heal themselves :) your mind and body are far from irreversibly fucked, even with how awful you feel right now.

I can understand how guilty you feel from what your mother has said. But I promise you that you are not defined by what she feels of you. Her opinion of you certainly burdens you—and I understand why you feel that waybut I promise you, it will be far better if you disconnect from just her perspective. She only sees what she sees; she doesn't know you as well as you know yourself.

Many others have suffered from the same conditions you have, even many going on to live happy and sound lives after recovering enough from their addictions.

It seems that you really want to recover. Suicide is certainly not the only option; it's just one of many options.

Let's say you're driving down a road. And you go a long way down it. Then you realize you're not where you want to me, and have been going the wrong way all along. What would be the right choice from here? It wouldn't be to keep going down the same way out of despair; it would be to try moving towards the other way, no matter how far it is. Because we want to reach where we want to be; we only think of giving up when it feels impossible. And when it feels impossible,

"It always seems impossible, until it is done."
—Nelson Mandela

The best of luck to you. We are rooting for you in your long-term recovery from drugs. I promise you recovery is possible, and very much worth your time as well. Please take care of yourself, as well as you can—we all fail sometimes, in health and other things. There is a way out of the issues of drug addiction; a long-term path towards a more sober life as a whole (that might not mean no drunkeness at all; but just slightly clearer days in general). Best of luck. :)
 
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Salting the wounds

Salting the wounds

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Dec 2, 2024
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Your answer feels like a relief, I appreciate it very much, unfortunately my mental situation is not improving at all, my first psychotic break was two years ago, and still my mind has not recovered, I am 24 years old, sometimes I feel hope, sometimes I think this can change, but everything fades away, the worst of all is that I have/had everything a person would want, a great physical appearance, a great economy at home and many friends and also relationships with girls. Anyway, I started using drugs when I was 15 and everything was fine until I was 19 but then the problems started.
If I could push a button and disappear I would do it without a doubt, but instead I am faced with the fact that it is practically impossible to ctb.
 

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