Do you self harm?

[Powderedmonster]

I.e. cutting, burning yourself, etc.

 

[BandAddict]

Used to daily.

 

[Chlo]

Used to, back in my late teens/early 20s. Had to get stitches earlier this month after an incident unrelated to self harm and find myself wanting to again. I'm dumb.

 

[Escaper Boy]

There was one time when I felt really tempted to try cutting. I was running out of options for escapism/distraction. Cutting was never an option for me. It simply didn't have the "appeal" or "attraction" compared to gaming, Youtube, or even sleeping.

One night, I tried to do a tiny slice on my left wrist using razor. I did it very lightly. It didn't bleed. My skin only felt itchy due to contact with metal. I stopped right away and never bothered to try again.

 

[tomz323]

Might start at this point, anyone know if it makes you feel better?

 

[clover___]

I find that I mostly self harm when I feel trapped and helpless, so when I have an explicit plan or means of escape it's not as necessary. Right now it's been I think around a month or two since I've cut, for that reason. I still get the urge though. If I lived alone and didn't have to worry about disturbing others I'd probably be doing it much more frequently, guilt can be a powerful deterrent I guess.

Might start at this point, anyone know if it makes you feel better?

It can, temporarily. Like many forms of temporary relief it can easily become addictive, harder to get the same effect, and in the end do more harm than good though.

 

[FaceOfSilence]

Used to. A lot. Won't be able to wear open sleeves for years i guess. Stopped helping 2 years in though so i stopped, too.

 

[Nihil]

No, never. Self harming could lead to scars or injuries that could be noticed by others (especially family). Don't want to be committed for that. Plus, when I decide to ultimately die, I want it to be relatively quick and instant. Self-harming, for me anyways, will likely not result in death. Why make things more painful and drawn-out when it could all be over in an instant? I don't want to suffer anymore than I have to.

 

[AH-93]

I self harm 4+ times a week whether it's cutting, self strangulation or hitting myself. It's the only thing at the moment that takes me away from CTB after I have flashbacks or nightmares from my childhood. One day it'll stop helping and I'll just end it.

 

[BridgeJumper]

Yes, Ive been self harming since like 2007 so like 12 years now. I think its pretty severe, my cuts usually arent very deep but I have tons of them, I think between 250 and 500, covering my whole body. I never wear crop tops and shorts, even in summer since some stranger asked me what kinda accident Ive been in. I feel addicted just like with drugs or alcohol, sometimes I do it twice a day and bleed into water in my bathtub. Cant go one day without self harm. Right now I think I need stitches but it doesnt deter me. There are breaks during which I dont do it but theyre getting shorter and shorter since I cant come up with anything constructive to take away the pain.

 

[TAW122]

I do not self-harm since I'm averse to physical pain and pain in general. Also, given that I've thought about my CTB well in advance, self-harming would not help me get closer to my goal or eventual situation of CTB'ing.

 

[Powderedmonster]

I do not self-harm since I'm averse to physical pain and pain in general. Also, given that I've thought about my CTB well in advance, self-harming would not help me get closer to my goal or eventual situation of CTB'ing.

What's your method? I'm generally cutting to build pain tolerance

 

[lizinha]

Both of my arms are covered in many cuts, lighter and cigarette burns. Ive been clean for 4 months

 

[FullCircle]

I have off and on for about 10 years. I only do it occasionally now but when I do it's pretty extreme. Like stitches or waking up in pools of blood severe. I have scars that will never go away. I don't recommend starting. Ever.

 

[lost.ghost]

Self harm has been getting more and more addicting for me to the point where Ive been thinking of stabbing myself. Just because I love the blood and the feeling and the damage

 

[Hotsackage]

Kinda thought about startin

 

[weargon]

Does drinking count? lol.

 

[Roberto]

In my imagination. When I walk I use to look at my veins in my wrist and desire to make cuts. But I think I prefer to make cuts without lot of blood going out. The important thing is the pain, I think.
The last months I don't think much of it. I'm hooked to internet, and I don't think.

 

[k3v3r]

i cut myself

 

[Retched]

I started scratching my back enough to leave scabs and then (gross but true) would scratch the scabs off. I've been doing this for about 6 months and let up for a few months. I have a back full of ugly looking spots now. No bathing suit or cute summer dresses for me. I've gotten to the point where I've considered other things like cutting. But haven't started, just think about it.

 

[Nobodysfault]

Selfharm by not growing up,negetivity,doing nothing at all (no activity or self development). It has Been 10 years, and it harmed my body,mind and surrounding more than a cut.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

Might start at this point, anyone know if it makes you feel better?

I think when u see the blood it's calming but days afterwards or if someone sees u feel ashamed....but when that blood pours i find it relaxing like a small weight has been lifted for a short time

 

[Hhhh]

I used to love self-harming until my parents stopped me. I didn't even do it because I 'wanted to punish myself' , but because I genuinely enjoyed it. I particularly like burning myself with cigs. Even now, every time I get a chance you bet I'm going to put that cig out on my hand. Now that I'm covered in scars and can't harm myself anymore, I just watch other people do it. It's not the same thing but still it relieves the urges a bit.

 

[AhG]

Only when I can't control my situation.

 

[onamy]

I've always wanted to cut but haven't. I like the idea of making me feel alive. Accidental cuts and blood make me dizzy. So that when feeling dull I could use that to make me feel like shit and weak and stuff. But I'm the type that wants to keep my options open forever. So I don't want scars that I would regret later. I've not given up on a sexual partner yet and don't want to have to explain stuff.

Sometimes like today when I know I have an appointment in the morning (that I won't skip), I just refuse to go to sleep knowing I'll feel like shit in the morning for the lack of sleep. I don't know what's with the fantasy of wanting to feel weak and pathetic.

Sometimes I just skip meals. Which also then makes me feel weak, as if I would fall in a coma.

Though usually I'll just snack because I have really bad sugar/chocolate addiction, I just keep eating thorough the evening until I feel sick. Good thing I've always been underweight so there's nothing to regret. Maybe diabetes. That's probably why I cycle between healthy and unhealthy.

 

[Please_stop]

I've tried cutting when I was a teenager, but never really got to do it. In recent years I've started hurting myself when I get a fit of rage, despair and/or hopelessness (biting, scratching, hitting). I currently have two small bruises on my face because of it

 

[IRIYAMA]

If abusing script medications and narcotics counts, then yes......

 

[crea_the_hopeless]

I self harm every now and again. I started ten years ago. I'll go through times when I can stop it for awhile but usually after something major I end up relapsing. It's a constant struggle that idk if I'll ever get over fully. It can be addictive given it's effect on the brain.

 

[soda_pressed]

I used to. Now I just drink and smoke weed heavily instead

 

[JadedGray]

I used to, but don't anymore. I don't wish to harm myself, I just don't want to live. I used to cut my arms, once I burned myself with a cigarette, and one time I gave myself a black eye and busted lip (I just told my mom I fell) so I wouldn't have to go to school (and have everyone gawk at me) because the bullying was so bad. I haven't done any of this since I was in my teens because I don't have the energy anymore. The only self injury lately has been my failed attempts.