Do you have your supplies?

[IronTusk]

I have my amitripyline, benzos , will have tagament soon, and im about to order meto from alldaychemist or from the guy i got amitriptyline from.

Hopefully within 2 weeks ill be dead

 

[Soul]

I have several items to go. I don't know what to tell a doctor to get a benzo prescription, and I still need the meto as well.

I hope you find peace, IronTusk.

 

[NOT]

Good luck. Make sure you are not interrupted. I hear it takes time with this one.

 

[spanishguy22]

Yes

 

[Halo13]

I hope you have a pleasant journey and rest well.

 

[IronTusk]

Yes

What method are you using

I hope you have a pleasant journey and rest well.

Thanks so much

I have several items to go. I don't know what to tell a doctor to get a benzo prescription, and I still need the meto as well.

I hope you find peace, IronTusk.

I'd look online for benzos, maybe IndiaMART. That's where I got my amitriplyine. I know it's easy to get funky designer benzos from China.

 

[spanishguy22]

What method are you using

Thanks so much

I'd look online for benzos, maybe IndiaMART. That's where I got my amitriplyine. I know it's easy to get funky designer benzos from China.

SN but I want a shotgun. It's gonna take a long time to get it though

 

[IronTusk]

SN but I want a shotgun. It's gonna take a long time to get it though

I can't buy a gun

 

[Dandelion]

Ye I have almost everything ready, the benzos, the antiacids and the SN, the only thing driving me nuts it's that I can't find meto anywhere else, I've searched high and low and nothing.

Good luck on your journey, tho.

 

[Halo13]

Ye I have almost everything ready, the benzos, the antiacids and the SN, the only thing driving me nuts it's that I can't find meto anywhere else, I've searched high and low and nothing.

Good luck on your journey, tho.

Is there any way you could get it from a doctor?

What method are you using

Thanks so much

I'd look online for benzos, maybe IndiaMART. That's where I got my amitriplyine. I know it's easy to get funky designer benzos from China.

I'm stuck on the benzo prescription also. Nervous about ordering online.

 

[Nem]

I have the sn, which is analytical grade and I'm hoping it's pure enough, received the meto online as well. Just need the antacids and the benzos, is it necessary to have the benzos and is there a certain procedure to take the items? I see a few different approaches to this method, I am wondering how long this method can take to finish a person off?
Peace!

 

[IronTusk]

I have the sn, which is analytical grade and I'm hoping it's pure enough, received the meto online as well. Just need the antacids and the benzos, is it necessary to have the benzos and is there a certain procedure to take the items? I see a few different approaches to this method, I am wondering how long this method can take to finish a person off?
Peace!

Why do you need benzos for SN??

 

[Halo13]

I have the sn, which is analytical grade and I'm hoping it's pure enough, received the meto online as well. Just need the antacids and the benzos, is it necessary to have the benzos and is there a certain procedure to take the items? I see a few different approaches to this method, I am wondering how long this method can take to finish a person off?
Peace!

The benzos aren't necessary. Some are choosing to add them to be relaxed or knocked out easier after taking the other things.

 

[Dandelion]

Is there any way you could get it from a doctor?

I have an appointment in 3 days with my doctor, I'll try to tell him that i've been feeling nauseous and that I had a lot of vertigo lately, i'll see what he gives me because i don't know what else I could say, i'm very bad at lying to be honest lol.

 

[Halo13]

Meto is used for GERD. Could try saying you were diagnosed with it once? I'm bad at it, too. I plan on saying something similar when I go next month.

 

[NOT]

I have been thinking of bying some suitcase with security combination for my suicide stash. But they are to easy to broke into. I think I will go with portable safe. I do not live alone at the moment and my family knows I am suicidal.

 

[RRH]

I received my N a couple of months ago. I'm relieved to have it but still scared to use it.

 

[IronTusk]

I received my N a couple of months ago. I'm relieved to have it but still scared to use it.

Hmmm I hate this hole we find our selves in

 

[RRH]

Hmmm I hate this hole we find our selves in

You and I both.

 

[IronTusk]

Just ordered my meto. This is getting real.

 

[IRIYAMA]

Yes, have N and enough Amitriptyline as a back up method..

 

[JadedGray]

No, I'm still waiting for the SN I ordered. I also need to go to a walk-in clinic to get the anti-emetics and Tagamet since customs in Canada are strict and I don't want to take the chance of purchasing them online and having them confiscated.

Good luck when you do go.

 

[offshoreserver]

no supplies. i wish i did but i don't know where to start. i keep thinking about sn... it's like a daydream but it also makes me want to cry. i've been attempting with complete futility for the better part of a decade now since before i was even a teenager. i heard about sn and researched and it seemed right for me but i have very little money to my name and the fact that meto already seems to be becoming less accessible just makes the pain worse. i don't think that i have much of a shot at this and by the time i will i'm sure people will have caught on to sn more than they already have and that'll be it. i always considered a shotgun to the face but after finding out about what it's like to survive that i don't know if i have the guts for it and i'm not sure how i would even obtain a firearm anyway with no finances and no way to get any

seeing you all here makes me emotional on a lot of different levels. i know some, if not all of you, will be gone soon. i support your choice as i know you all would support mine but if any of you are anything like me, the isolation and the loneliness is some of the worst of it all. if any of you want to talk before you ctb, i'll be here periodically and my pms are open to you. @IronTusk or anyone else. i won't try to dissuade you or push you in either direction but i am here to listen even if that's the only thing i can do

i want to believe that there will be other ways out in the future but i just feel hopeless. there's nothing more i can say than that. i have considered other methods but in the end all i continue to find are stories of people surviving. i know some of them go on to be happier, but i don't think i would fall there. especially with the methods i've always considered. if anyone here attempts with what they've got and it doesn't go through, i only hope you either find happiness in life or you find a way to exit peacefully elsewhere or through another way. whatever happens, may you find the peace you seek

 

[Camille Lejeune]

Meto + N + benzo

 

[Halo13]

no supplies. i wish i did but i don't know where to start. i keep thinking about sn... it's like a daydream but it also makes me want to cry. i've been attempting with complete futility for the better part of a decade now since before i was even a teenager. i heard about sn and researched and it seemed right for me but i have very little money to my name and the fact that meto already seems to be becoming less accessible just makes the pain worse. i don't think that i have much of a shot at this and by the time i will i'm sure people will have caught on to sn more than they already have and that'll be it. i always considered a shotgun to the face but after finding out about what it's like to survive that i don't know if i have the guts for it and i'm not sure how i would even obtain a firearm anyway with no finances and no way to get any

seeing you all here makes me emotional on a lot of different levels. i know some, if not all of you, will be gone soon. i support your choice as i know you all would support mine but if any of you are anything like me, the isolation and the loneliness is some of the worst of it all. if any of you want to talk before you ctb, i'll be here periodically and my pms are open to you. @IronTusk or anyone else. i won't try to dissuade you or push you in either direction but i am here to listen even if that's the only thing i can do

i want to believe that there will be other ways out in the future but i just feel hopeless. there's nothing more i can say than that. i have considered other methods but in the end all i continue to find are stories of people surviving. i know some of them go on to be happier, but i don't think i would fall there. especially with the methods i've always considered. if anyone here attempts with what they've got and it doesn't go through, i only hope you either find happiness in life or you find a way to exit peacefully elsewhere or through another way. whatever happens, may you find the peace you seek

It's a hopeless feeling - wanting and needing so badly to ctb but not having the supplies, especially after failing repeatedly

 

[offshoreserver]

It's a hopeless feeling - wanting and needing so badly to ctb but not having the supplies, especially after failing repeatedly

yeah, for sure. my si kicks in in really strange ways too. no control over it. a few years ago i lied down on my back in the middle of the street at night for a while and then halfway blacked out, went back upstairs to where i was living. happens in the middle of attempts or serious self harm a lot so i can never get very far. have held guns in my hands ready to die and similar things would always happen. feel like even if i had the money for n and meto and everything else i would be halfway through the regimen and then go on autopilot like that and all the supplies would vanish along with all the effort and money it would take to get them. makes me feel like it's never going to happen

 

[Halo13]

yeah, for sure. my si kicks in in really strange ways too. no control over it. a few years ago i lied down on my back in the middle of the street at night for a while and then halfway blacked out, went back upstairs to where i was living. happens in the middle of attempts or serious self harm a lot so i can never get very far. have held guns in my hands ready to die and similar things would always happen. feel like even if i had the money for n and meto and everything else i would be halfway through the regimen and then go on autopilot like that and all the supplies would vanish along with all the effort and money it would take to get them. makes me feel like it's never going to happen

SI is such a hard thing to overcome. Some posts suggest alcohol or a sedative to make it easier to let go before/during whichever method.

 

[Livinginhell]

Have my sn and meto, just waiting for the antacids.

 

[Raggas]

Yeah, I ordered all of my stuff when I was feeling suicidal, it arrived and I was closed to doing it one night. But now I feel stable and not suicidal so it's just sitting there for the time being.

 

[Jc40]

Amitriptyline on way, I have propranolol, I'm not following the protocol completely. I have diclazepam but dodgy perhaps. I am going to use it with hanging,with just tiptoes touching the floor. At the moment I am numb about this. I bought pills online but turned out to be fake :(