Discussion Do you feel like you commited successfully?

[arrythmia]

This might sound dumb
Last week i try to cbt using ligature. Obviously i didn't succeed, but this time it felt different when i woke up the next day.
I felt and still feel like I'm dead, I'm already passed away.
I've always felt dead and numb most of my life but this time it's different, i can't quite put my hand on it or describe it properly.
Meybe is just severe dissociation.
Have you felt this way? Why does feel this way?

 

[em4250]

This has never happened to me, but it does sound like dissociation.