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absolute failure

absolute failure

Student
Jan 19, 2026
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Guys and girls,i mean it with all my heart,dont do it. I have some pain in my carotides and i dont know what to do. I tried on friday and now i seriously feel the consequences of almost dying. If i go to a doctor what the fuck do i even say? Maybe it will just end me i dont know, it sucks.
 
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Captive_Mind515

Captive_Mind515

King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
648
You could say you were in a fight, and someone was choking you. Perhaps that would be believable. Please get medical treatment if you think you need it. Sorry things didn't work out for you.
 
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Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
676
I don't get it with partial . There are so many videos and pictures of people who did commit suicide by doing partial the position of some of them does even look so unsafe yet they still managed it all: to become unconscious, to stay in a position where their carotids are being constricted and they die.
Partial is much more peaceful then full because it is easy to go down knowing you can all the time just stand up while with full you know once the chair is gone you're gone so that makes it very difficult for people who wanna do full hanging to even be able to go into action.
 
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kufajoy

kufajoy

Misfit
Nov 6, 2025
230
Yeah partial did't give much pain when I was still hanging but damn when I chickened out and pulled the rope out I was really in pain. I took paracetamol for some days and wear scarf.

But it can damge brain if it was long time. Ig you should go to doctor
 
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absolute failure

Student
Jan 19, 2026
170
I am gonna see how i will feel the next couple of days. The pain is still bearable. Thank you all for your kind words <3
 
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xXSufferingXx

Elementalist
Feb 21, 2025
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so wait, did you get SI or what happened?
or did you regret and abort it?
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
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Sorry you had this experience. I have tried partial a few times and never experienced pain during or afterwards. Hope the pain goes away, or you can get help for it. 🫂
 
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absolute failure

Student
Jan 19, 2026
170
so wait, did you get SI or what happened?
or did you regret and abort it?
Yeah basically, i only managed to hang 20 secs at most, i almost blacked out and tight before i stopped
Sorry you had this experience. I have tried partial a few times and never experienced pain during or afterwards. Hope the pain goes away, or you can get help for it. 🫂
Did your pain go away? :(
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,512
Did your pain go away? :(
I did not have any pain while attempting partial. I got dizzy and lost consciousness, and afterwards I had a mark on my neck, but never any pain.
 
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absolute failure

Student
Jan 19, 2026
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I did not have any pain while attempting partial. I got dizzy and lost consciousness, and afterwards I had a mark on my neck, but never any pain.
Thats good.. i feel pressure in my neck
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
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Many have been successful with partial. I even personally knew someone who successfully pulled it off. Sorry your attempt didn't work out for you. Was your failure just a case of backing out, or were the mechanics of it the problem?
 
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sulvumnolo

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Jan 31, 2026
20
I did not have any pain while attempting partial. I got dizzy and lost consciousness, and afterwards I had a mark on my neck, but never any pain.
Sorry if this is a dumb question. But if you lost consciousness... How are you still alive? Isn't that the main thing? Losing consciousness and the rope does the rest?
 
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absolute failure

Student
Jan 19, 2026
170
Many have been successful with partial. I even personally knew someone who successfully pulled it off. Sorry your attempt didn't work out for you. Was your failure just a case of backing out, or were the mechanics of it the problem?
I backed out last second whilst partially hanging. I hung for 20 seconds
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,244
Yeah, partial doesn't work, it just injures you.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,512
Sorry if this is a dumb question. But if you lost consciousness... How are you still alive? Isn't that the main thing? Losing consciousness and the rope does the rest?
The issue with partial is that you are still touching the ground, which means the body can straighten up and save itself. This happened to me. I lost consciousness and, after some time (no idea how long), I snapped back awake (like when you jump awake out of a dream) and I found myself sitting up straight instead of leaned forward. This caused the tension on the rope to go away and blood returned to my head.
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
676
The issue with partial is that you are still touching the ground, which means the body can straighten up and save itself. This happened to me. I lost consciousness and, after some time (no idea how long), I snapped back awake (like when you jump awake out of a dream) and I found myself sitting up straight instead of leaned forward. This caused the tension on the rope to go away and blood returned to my head.
Now let's imagine someone does partial and he's gone for more than 5 min than he wakes up wouldn't that person now be paralyzed? This is what terrifies me the most about partial waking up but too late so I already damaged the brain a lot….
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,512
Now let's imagine someone does partial and he's gone for more than 5 min than he wakes up wouldn't that person now be paralyzed? This is what terrifies me the most about partial waking up but too late so I already damaged the brain a lot….
If you are paralyzed, how are you going to stand up and save yourself?
 
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absolute failure

Student
Jan 19, 2026
170
If you are paralyzed, how are you going to stand up and save yourself?
someone may find you and save you, especially if youre stupid like me and try in the woods xd
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,512
someone may find you and save you, especially if youre stupid like me and try in the woods xd
Well then, this is not a problem with the method, but rather its performer.

Edit to add: Each method has a particular time frame and may need different lengths of being left alone or different physical space. Part of the process of picking a good method is to make sure that all of these align with what works for you. Unfortunately, this makes picking the correct method very difficult for some people.
 
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HangMan123

Experienced
Nov 13, 2025
200
Are you okay now? I hope your pain has gone away.
Is it okay with you if I ask if you ended up with any noticeable cognitive impairment?
 
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absolute failure

Student
Jan 19, 2026
170
Are you okay now? I hope your pain has gone away.
Is it okay with you if I ask if you ended up with any noticeable cognitive impairment?
its better now. i dont feel any cognitive impairment, but i also didnt black out, so i guess my brain is still fine
 
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I_go_in

Student
Nov 5, 2024
106
Guys and girls,i mean it with all my heart,dont do it. I have some pain in my carotides and i dont know what to do. I tried on friday and now i seriously feel the consequences of almost dying. If i go to a doctor what the fuck do i even say? Maybe it will just end me i dont know, it sucks.
You're able to post coherently, what's the symptoms other than just physical bruises on the neck? I doubt your vertebrate is broken or you were out so long that you had cell death in the brain. You'll be alright just choose a different method.
I don't get it with partial . There are so many videos and pictures of people who did commit suicide by doing partial the position of some of them does even look so unsafe yet they still managed it all: to become unconscious, to stay in a position where their carotids are being constricted and they die.
Partial is much more peaceful then full because it is easy to go down knowing you can all the time just stand up while with full you know once the chair is gone you're gone so that makes it very difficult for people who wanna do full hanging to even be able to go into action.
Wouldn't that mean full is just superior if you really meant to die? There has to be a way to sort of ease yourself into closing the arteries and then kick the chair away leaning only eternal peace ahead. I think people who choose partial (and this is only my opinion) don't want the complete finality of non existence.
Well then, this is not a problem with the method, but rather its performer.

Edit to add: Each method has a particular time frame and may need different lengths of being left alone or different physical space. Part of the process of picking a good method is to make sure that all of these align with what works for you. Unfortunately, this makes picking the correct method very difficult for some people.
The vast majority of failures of the most popular methods are issues of the performer or their environment. For instance SN is 100% lethal and opiate overdose with sufficient amounts is 100% lethal. The only way you live is somebody finding you soon after and getting medical treatment. Jumping from a 500 foot building and landing on your head is 100% lethal. But humans make mistakes. In any failed attempt of a surefire method you can see a failure of planning or efficacy of some sort. Didn't use enough of the drug, jumped from too low, didn't close their carotid etc.
 
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windowinstaller

Member
Nov 19, 2025
80
Guys and girls,i mean it with all my heart,dont do it. I have some pain in my carotides and i dont know what to do. I tried on friday and now i seriously feel the consequences of almost dying. If i go to a doctor what the fuck do i even say? Maybe it will just end me i dont know, it sucks.
Say that you g were y got chocked ina fight so that you world because then they eilm believe you thqt. You could also say you of got t on to that you got chocked by your girlfriend or both Bei say it was a sexual activity that your girlfriend or boyfriend chocked you so you got. Don't try get sent to mentirbd .
 
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absolute failure

Student
Jan 19, 2026
170
Say that you g were y got chocked ina fight so that you world because then they eilm believe you thqt. You could also say you of got t on to that you got chocked by your girlfriend or both Bei say it was a sexual activity that your girlfriend or boyfriend chocked you so you got. Don't try get sent to mentirbd .
I had a stroke reading that my brother haha, but i think i am fine, no need for a doc
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Arcanist
Dec 24, 2025
416
ur fine now? are u changing ur method now or are u set on partial hanging/just hanging?
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Mage
Nov 12, 2025
578
Say that you g were y got chocked ina fight so that you world because then they eilm believe you thqt. You could also say you of got t on to that you got chocked by your girlfriend or both Bei say it was a sexual activity that your girlfriend or boyfriend chocked you so you got. Don't try get sent to mentirbd .
Choked. Choked. From the word choke. Chocked is sumthin' else completely! Sorry lol enjoy those benzos! 😉
 
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Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
172
Guys and girls,i mean it with all my heart,dont do it. I have some pain in my carotides and i dont know what to do. I tried on friday and now i seriously feel the consequences of almost dying. If i go to a doctor what the fuck do i even say? Maybe it will just end me i dont know, it sucks.
You never deserved the life you had. No one should be forced to commit suicide. Your circumstances were unfair, and I deeply regret it. If my thoughts could do anything for you, they would be wishing you well.
 

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