So I recently saw a post about someone who tried the VSED (voluntarily stopped eating and drinking) except he kept drinking and only stopped eating. This went on for a few weeks and apparently he almost succeeded were it not for the fact he fainted in public (and almost died, but was given cpr). Apparently, the feeling was eventually "good" or at least not as painful as the beginning.
NOW, I know we are all strangers and we can make fake posts and stuff like that, and everyone is different. But geniunely, could this be a decent method? Just staying at home, being disciplined enough not to eat, just kind of chilling and drinking as usual, letting nature do its job to ctb. This would be something I'd consider if I decided to try ctb again (when things gets bad enough and I find myself living alone in a few years).
Also, I have tried the Shallow Water Blackout method by inhaling antitranspirant spray through a towel to decrease my oxygen and then drown painlessly. I was almost there but the SI is absolutely INSANE with that method. Would be perfect if not for the SI.
Back to the topic, what are your thoughts on starving?
I've made it to a day and a half with no food or water. All I thought about was why I should eat.
On paper it sounds like the perfect way to end ones life. No gun, no breaking the law with illegal substances, just stop eating and slowly stay in bed.
I practice, you'll just stare at a wall and start hallucinating about food. You'll see glasses of water and have dreams about eating, only to wake and fight the urge to eat.
At least I did, and that was for one day.
I know people like Bobby Sands was able, but he must have been very motivated by the political implications of his hunger strike.
Having been in prison myself, I tried a hunger strike and was able to skip one meal. It was too harrowing to go without food, but then again, Mr. Sands was in better health than I was.
I was probably weighing 200 lbs, whereas he was barely 155 lbs. Less weight to lose and probably just wasn't that big of an eater.
The bigger you are, the harder it is because you have more weight to lose. You'll have to go longer without food, and honestly, you'll have to be in good health with a healthy place to lay.
I still think about starving myself to death, but it's almost impossible when I have a doctor's appointment or family get together. You would have to tell everyone that you're not eating or just stay home, and that will raise eyebrows with the medical community.
If you did go thru with it, you would end up in a coma, and if someone found your body, they would call an ambulance. I'm not sure how it works where you live, but you would need a living will stating not to be resuscitated, and the ambulance would need to know this, because legally they would have to do everything in their disposal to keep you alive.
It sounds appealing but outside the Irish hunger strike, I've never heard of anyone doing it besides the terminally ill and elderly people whose bodies were already shutting down. This is how my grandmother died. She was 82 in a nursing home and with dementia, basically locked in her body and unable to to move. She simply stopped eating and drinking, and passed within four days.
The only other person I know that starved to death was Chris McCandless of Into the Wild fame, and his was pretty harrowing. He was desperate and immobile in the Alaskan wilderness, sleeping in an abandoned school bus with a heater. He must have been hallucinating some dark thoughts and probably seeing demons by that point.
It's too bad, because it does seem like the perfect way to go when compared to shooting yourself or hanging yourself. But alas, it's not fun, and I imagine even Bobby Sands, who eventually was placed on an IV, probably wasn't having a good time. Watch the movie Hunger for the depiction, it's brutal.
Besides this, you won't sleep. I tried a hunger strike in a mental hospital and made it two meals, and was pacing the whole time. I looked like an asshole and made A lot of enemies with the kitchen staff. Trying to kill yourself when everyone else is trying to get better is definitely looked down upon.
That's my two cents anyway, but hopefully your attempt will go better.
