diary vent

[KenDuh]

I make this thread to vent once in a while, and have it all here in the same place, feel free to answer or whatever

Everyday feels the same, i never know what to do, why to eat or do anything, I just follow the routine. I feel like I got no one to talk to, nobody wants to hears me complain (understandable), I'm in a chamber all alone, sometimes trying to sleep, sometimes trying to rest, just waiting for thing to get better, but I've been waiting for years and no change, I just do what the doctors told me, take my meds, and wait alone for my body to rotten, I just want this to stop

 

[KenDuh]

I just feel alone, I have confided in friends and they have asked me not to, saying it was too much for them. I am currently suffering from severe depression and nothing seems to motivate me. I try to talk to people but I don't know how or what to say. Every day I feel alone, I can't talk to my friends and I am unable to communicate with anyone else because deep down I don't even care about what to say.

 

[CapitánBeto]

It's very difficult when you don't have anyone to rely on.
If mental illness is too much for your friends I think you'll need to find people who you can talk to.
Group therapy has helped me a great deal. If you google, you'll find various online resources. I use HeyPeers.

 

[KenDuh]

Now my cat is really sick. I really love him, but I don't have the motivation to take really good care of him. Thankfully, there is my mother. I just feel bad, he was hospitalised and I really miss him. I feel like I have a thousand problems on my hands, and I try and try to get better, but got nothing. I really wish I wasn't that afraid of death. I don't know what to do or who to talk to, I feel like drowning.