Dianabol, gives me a testosterone high, its the best treatment ever.

[dandan]

I am taking 20mg of Dianabol every morning
hitting the gym
working, and I now have two business projects besides my employment
and im in a good mood.

this is offtopic, I was going to kill myself mere couple weeks ago... now im thinking that its a shame that I can not take dianabol more than 6 - 8 straight weeks,
so how am I going to feel when I drop it.... whatever man, I will take testosterone repalcement treament therapy or similar, I think its my hormones or that chemical that makes life enjoyable....

fuck it man, life is chemistry , how fucked up is that?

is not my sense of self, or my self-steem, or my thoughts, or my way of thinking.... but fucking chemicals in my blood.... damm.. how fucked up, what a crazy world, what a piece of shit we are hahahahah ( I am, talking about me.... my fucking chemicals have sucked since I was a child,,,, fuck it, I'll go this route now, and when it all stops working, I ll go out peacefully with N , knowing I have tried everything, I found what was missing in my life.... its not me, im not to blame man )

 

[netrezven]

Few weeks ago i ran into a solution close to yours. It really works best. Fake it all. No one cares.

 

[dandan]

?? No one cares? What do you mean? I care and that's the most important thing and I'm the most important person on earth, it's totally worth it... at least this last days on it...

I do understand some people have other issues and some I totally agree maybe CTBing is better , hell if this ends up screwing me I'll ctb myself, I have my N in the fridge just in case.

This is not a pro-life forum nor I intended to make it one, I just say maybe it's not "depression" , maybe it's just a hormone imbalance in the system, psychiatrists don't check hormones!!!

 

[netrezven]

There are people who will judge you if take steroids. If nobody knows they will like you. I'm saying it only as analogy for different situations i came across. I thought that faking and cheating on some stuff won't remain unseen by closest people around me, but...it actually went. That's why i think nobody cares.

 

[dandan]

It's funny, I know people like me , alcoholics and drug addicts, weed, coke, but they wont take steroids LOL


If they make you feel good without the price or destruction of cocaine, the why not?
Plus I haven't experienced the steroid depression yet, like that which comes after a few grams of coke...

 

[oldgregg187]

I've wanted to try, just worried it'll make my hair fall out. what do you take
I have some d- bol I got from dream awhile back. how is it after the cycle