developed a weird form of self harm

[finish.me]

as of like a couple months ago whenever i'm alone with my thoughts or my brain impulsively and obsessively brings up certain things from the past i, literally on instinct, reel my fist back and punch myself in the face or slap myself. Like it's gotten to the point where I'm getting bruises and I can't explain them to people but so far nothing else has been as effective in clearing my mind than doing that. I don't even know how the fuck this started. It kind of feels like I'm not even in control of my hands when I do it, like it just happens and it's been happening a ridiculous amount of times a day. what the hell.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I relate. I haven't gotten bruises or anything though. If you have pets don't do it in front of them.

 

[Kattt]

I've seen this quite a bit as an inpatient.
Can't say I understand it,but you are far from alone

 

[Kattt]

But then again, I cut my own throat
so it's probably not wise to listen to someone like that

 

[L-L]

I don't even know how the fuck this started. It kind of feels like I'm not even in control of my hands when I do it,

If it helps you then try to turn it into a more sustainable behaviour before you find yourself doing it in public. The extra humiliation is something I doubt you need!

But then again, I cut my own throat
so it's probably not wise to listen to someone like that

Was this a serious attempt?