Venting Death scares me

[UninformedLover]

The thought of there being nothing after death scares me so much it makes me want to throw up. As the days go one I keep thinking about the afterlife and the possibility that once I kill myself like that's it. No cushy afterlife, no reincarnation, no being a ghost - nothing. I can't escape this thought. It terrifies me so much I can barely think about anything else anymore.

And I know that eventually whether I CTB or something else happens I will die regardless just like everyone else but idk. There's just so many things I want to do and experience and see but my life is just so awful I'd never get to do it anyway. Plus my life is rapidly falling apart and slipping away like sand through an open hand CTB is my last resort.

I'm just really scared.

 

[Darkover]

A child never gives its consent to be dragged kicking and screaming into this reality, and forcing it to is unconscionable.
The only certainty in life is death, The most terrifying thing to a human is death. By bringing a child into the world, you force another being into a form of existential bondage where it is perpetually frightened of and certain of its own impending death. It's completely unjustifiable.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

A child never gives its consent to be dragged kicking and screaming into this reality, and forcing it to is unconscionable.
The only certainty in life is death, The most terrifying thing to a human is death. By bringing a child into the world, you force another being into a form of existential bondage where it is perpetually frightened of and certain of its own impending death. It's completely unjustifiable.

we all will die anyway no matter what is the most fundamental truth. it might be true for a lot of people that their inevitable Death is terrifying to them. for me my Death is not terrifying . i want my Death / non-existence asap. non-existence = i can't suffer extremely . while living i can suffer extremely

 

[FishRain3469]

Me Too, I am Absolutely mortified by the mere fckn thought of a ... black void or something similar. You are not alone.

 

[Endlichkeit]

The fear of death exists only in life.
Death itself exists only in life.
Your own death does not even exist, as you cannot experience it.
So you're actually scared of the contents of life.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

You know, I really like this image


Death can be scary, but it's also inevitable. It's something that we all have to come to accept at some point. None of this is forever and at any moment you could be gone. I also want to die, but there are times when I do find myself a bit scared of death. At the end of the day, the best that we can do is just accept it for what it is. The "nothingless void" is not anything new. There was once a time when you didn't exist and, at some point, you'll die and thus will cease to exist. Supposedly, I heard that death is kind of like when you sleep and wake up and there is that period in between that you have no memory of. It's like that but without the waking part.

 

[patheticparasite]

Death is nothingness, and I fear nothing.

Earnestly though, personally I can't relate to the concept of being afraid of nothing. The journey towards that nothingness, the suffering that comes with it, the people that might be affected by it, that's a different matter.

 

[divinemistress36]

You wont have a nervous system to produce fear when dead

A child never gives its consent to be dragged kicking and screaming into this reality, and forcing it to is unconscionable.
The only certainty in life is death, The most terrifying thing to a human is death. By bringing a child into the world, you force another being into a form of existential bondage where it is perpetually frightened of and certain of its own impending death. It's completely unjustifiable.

Life is more fearful than death

 

[Daenerys Targaryen]

If you're afraid of death, you're not truly ready for CTB. When the daily pain and suffering reach their peak, you don't care about anything as long as you get out of here, no matter what. Some people do it out of desperation, but planning is better.

 

[dune7263]

If you're afraid of death, you're not truly ready for CTB. When the daily pain and suffering reach their peak, you don't care about anything as long as you get out of here, no matter what. Some people do it out of desperation, but planning is better.

I am terrified of death but at the same time I also recognise I don't have much choice

 

[Daenerys Targaryen]

It's something all humans are aware of. But to endure what each person has to endure and suffer every day, you reach the point where it doesn't matter; the only thing you fear is failure. You lose your fear, no matter what happens next. After all, we're all destined to end up in the grave; no one is safe.

 

[Danby]

Death scares me too . . . what Shakespeare called "the undiscovered country from whose vale no traveler returns". Is it just nothingness? Is there an afterlife? Do we stay behind as ghosts? Is there reincarnation? Personally I prefer nothingness . . . still too fearful to find out, but that's rapidly changing. Anything could be better than constant pain and sadness.

 

[yomander369]

I too am afraid of nothingness. I want to end my suffering but at the cost of everything disappearing. My life is suffering but once death occurs there is no going back. You'll never get to experience anything anymore forever. That is a great loss, even if your life is full of suffering you are still capable of experiencing reality. After death that isn't the case.

Maybe consciousness is simply the basis of our survival instinct. Consciousness is that feeling of wanting to continue to experience things, which is the greatest survival instinct.

 

[ToANewWorld]

"Everyone has a full life, even if it ends soon. All lives are complete experiences."

"Any life at all is probably more than any of us deserves."

I find these observations to be true. I have regrets. I wished I could have accomplished a few more things before going. But I have enjoyed life very much. When we are born we are not given any guarantees of a long life. I did with my time what I pleased and have had my highs and lows. That's how I rationalize it

 

[Lapdog6795]

Do you remember or feel you missed something before you were born? The death will be the same. Total nothingness where even the concept called "nothingness" doesn't exist.
If ctb is what you want, then don't worry. You won't be scared because there won't be any "You".

 

[FoxSauce]

Death is a very scary concept idk if anyones in this dilema you want to die but you don't want to?

Of course there's also million theories of what comes after death but which one is the real one?

If i die and will just in a abyss alone or and endless sleep would be terrifying. Is being stuck in a really thin rope.

And I do belive in God some what but idk don't think I'll qualify to idk be with him?

Sorry for the ramble

Also no disrespect for anyone who doesn't believe in God or anything. It just my POV

 

[yomander369]

I will probably die today. I'm terrified but I have no choice. Life is cruel like that. But everyone dies eventually. It's an inconvenient truth we try to ignore

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I feel you, when I was younger I used to be terrified of death and would literally cry into the night because of it, even if I had many years ahead of me. Still, less than 100. I get to exist for about 80 years on this planet, without any complications. I am suicidal but that hasn't cancelled my worried or my fears about it, it's understandable... I may not be of help but I wanted to let you know that you're not alone in this.

 

[22yearsbroken]

Its life that scares me...my arms are wide open to embrace death with a big hug .. ill finally be at rest.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

Death is not an event in life: we do not live to experience death. If we take eternity to mean not infinite temporal duration but timelessness, than eternal life belongs to those who live in the present. Our life has no end in the way in which our visual field has no limits.

Ludwig Wittgenstein

 

[kamyzyak]

That's the reason I aborted my last attempt. The thought of nothingness used to comfort me, but at that moment, nonexistence seemed rather boring and lonely.

The truth is that no one has ever come back from there (unless you go into religion) to tell what's waiting on the other side, so we can't know for sure, and nothingness is just one of many possible outcomes.

Personally, some form of rebirth makes more sense to me than eternal nothingness, since:
1. To experience something you have to exist, in nothingness you don't exist, so you can't experience nothingness, so subjectively nothingness shouldn't exist.
2. I appeared once, so why not again?
But either way, it's impossible to know for sure, and that's a bit frustrating.