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selfeater

selfeater

it’s my fault for being me
Jan 11, 2024
17
I used to love drawing and art but now I can't I guess… I quit my art classes and ghosted my art teacher. I miss her and the classes. I tore up all my all pieces. I tore those up. I've been really struggling these past two weeks. I want to CTB with the SN I've had for half a year but I doubt I'm in enough pain to go through with it and I don't want to hurt my mom. I'll chicken out at the last minute because that's what I've always done- it's easier to go eat McDonalds and take a nap than go through with it lol. I miss art but I don't think I can practice it with enjoyment right now. But I made some doodles when I was struggling a while ago.

This first one I made I was feeling depressed and down.
Can you spot all the suicide methods??? : D Lmao
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The second one I made when I was in a mood I get a bunch this kind of incessant seething self-hatred. I'm too scared to self harm so during these moods I like to imagine abusing myself like stabbing myself again and again choking myself stomping my throat until its mush I like the guy on the bottom right
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StrangeLovve

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Mar 1, 2025
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La muerte es muy dulce, a veces odio vivir en un mundo donde perdí lo que más amo, quisiera morir y despertar en un lugar donde todo esté bien y yo sea feliz y tenga a la persona que siempre amé, odio mi vida y siempre estoy llorando.
 
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Wlfgrl

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Sep 29, 2022
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I used to love drawing and art but now I can't I guess… I quit my art classes and ghosted my art teacher. I miss her and the classes. I tore up all my all pieces. I tore those up. I've been really struggling these past two weeks. I want to CTB with the SN I've had for half a year but I doubt I'm in enough pain to go through with it and I don't want to hurt my mom. I'll chicken out at the last minute because that's what I've always done- it's easier to go eat McDonalds and take a nap than go through with it lol. I miss art but I don't think I can practice it with enjoyment right now. But I made some doodles when I was struggling a while ago.

This first one I made I was feeling depressed and down.
Can you spot all the suicide methods??? : D Lmao
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The second one I made when I was in a mood I get a bunch this kind of incessant seething self-hatred. I'm too scared to self harm so during these moods I like to imagine abusing myself like stabbing myself again and again choking myself stomping my throat until its mush I like the guy on the bottom right
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Nice drawings!
To be real, I only know a couple of these methods, that first one, must be the gas one I've heard about on this site before lol. I hope you can get back to drawing and art sometime in the future. Maybe even go back to those classes and that teacher, but whatever keeps you going. As far as Mcdonalds, the only stuff I get from them nowadays are the mcriddles in the morning and then nuggets in the afternoon, no sauce and a mocha frap. Though, since im beyond broke I cant really afford eating out lmao
 
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Sleeper System

Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
May 5, 2022
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Adorable. I want to see more.
 
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selfeater

selfeater

it’s my fault for being me
Jan 11, 2024
17
Adorable. I want to see more.
It's so funny to hear that kinda comment for drawings of suicide lmao. Thank you
Nice drawings!
To be real, I only know a couple of these methods, that first one, must be the gas one I've heard about on this site before lol. I hope you can get back to drawing and art sometime in the future. Maybe even go back to those classes and that teacher, but whatever keeps you going. As far as Mcdonalds, the only stuff I get from them nowadays are the mcriddles in the morning and then nuggets in the afternoon, no sauce and a mocha frap. Though, since im beyond broke I cant really afford eating out lmao
Thank you, your kind words are helping me through tough times. I hope I can go back to my art classes one day too. I like McDonald's sundaes and spicy chicken sandwich. I hope in the future you'll spoil yourself with tons of McDonald's mochas lol
 
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