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CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
I've set the date that I hope to CTB, I have SN on the way and am almost feeling relieved that the end is in sight. But I cant get rid of the guilt around the people I'm leaving behind. I know this is the best thing for me and them, and I know that there no other way out. I don't have friends, but I have a partner and a daughter and a small amount of family. They all tell me how selfish I'm being for how I feel and that I mustn't love them which hurts so much bevause I KNOW I love them. But I can't keep living in constant pain all the time. I have BPD and 'pure O' and they make my daily life a living hell. Nobody gets it though. How do I get rid of this guilt?
 
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JimFord99

JimFord99

Enlightened
Aug 18, 2019
1,047
Ahh, this is you have to forget completely. No guilt, no blame. If you can't leave this baggage behind then you are not ready yet. No offence but this is how it is.
 
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No hope

Member
Mar 27, 2019
67
Hi I'm in a similar position, I have a family but I can't stay. If you want to talk please feel to pm me
 

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