foreverafraid
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- Jul 29, 2019
- 3
the first day after the meltdown.
my boyfriend still hates my two other friends. i'm trying to keep them together, but it looks like burning bridges everywhere. even though i try to deny it, i still think a lot of this spiraled out of control because of my best friend backstabbing my bf. but at the same time, i blame myself for ever getting angry first that night. it enabled her to think it to be okay for her to go behind his back and talk shit to my other friend.
my actual family fell apart in the same way. backstabbing. my friends were like my second family who i cherished more, and to see it happen all over again...
as much as i pray we'll be together again before any of the bullshit happened, it won't be like that. i know deep down.
so i don't want to feel anything for them. my beef was originally with my boyfriend that night, but my best friend took it up a notch and shattered the relationship.
i'm at a loss at what to do, and my feelings for each of them has turned sour.
my boyfriend still hates my two other friends. i'm trying to keep them together, but it looks like burning bridges everywhere. even though i try to deny it, i still think a lot of this spiraled out of control because of my best friend backstabbing my bf. but at the same time, i blame myself for ever getting angry first that night. it enabled her to think it to be okay for her to go behind his back and talk shit to my other friend.
my actual family fell apart in the same way. backstabbing. my friends were like my second family who i cherished more, and to see it happen all over again...
as much as i pray we'll be together again before any of the bullshit happened, it won't be like that. i know deep down.
so i don't want to feel anything for them. my beef was originally with my boyfriend that night, but my best friend took it up a notch and shattered the relationship.
i'm at a loss at what to do, and my feelings for each of them has turned sour.
