Black Angel
Member
- Feb 20, 2025
- 14
I particularly enjoy the nights, there is a feeling of time suddenly stopping, as the whole world has come to a halt. No one disturbs me, and I can finally relax my brain, I enjoy the night time while I'm searching for various topics about CTB, which makes me feel incredibly secure and peaceful. I am particularly happy to have found this forum, and it has really given me hope with CTB. The most helpless feeling I used to have was that I didn't even know how to CTB, but now it's totally different~
However, I still believe that I tried my best even I'm only 24 y, and the lie I've heard the most in my life is 'everything will be okay ', maybe for somebody, but definitely not for me…And I do hate my parents, after all, not all parents truly love their kids. I also hate my relationship, it kills me deeply, but I don't care anymore, I wouldn't say that they made the mistakes, because they just made their choices, they chosen to hurt me in such way. So my final dignity is jump out the time and space with myself. Some people say that suicide is the most incompetent expression, and I greatly despise those people, because death also requires courage.
However, I still believe that I tried my best even I'm only 24 y, and the lie I've heard the most in my life is 'everything will be okay ', maybe for somebody, but definitely not for me…And I do hate my parents, after all, not all parents truly love their kids. I also hate my relationship, it kills me deeply, but I don't care anymore, I wouldn't say that they made the mistakes, because they just made their choices, they chosen to hurt me in such way. So my final dignity is jump out the time and space with myself. Some people say that suicide is the most incompetent expression, and I greatly despise those people, because death also requires courage.
