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Aesthler

Aesthler

Death is the only God who comes when you call
Sep 25, 2018
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I've been thinking a lot about it, there's a lot of anticipation. I can say it feels like you're about to jump in some cold water, you don't know how cold it is, but you know it's coming and you know that if you just jump you'd get it over with but your body is tense and your mind is telling you not to do it. You tell yourself it's gonna suck, and it might at first. I'm sure this isn't really how all of us feel and it may not be accurate but I've been deep in the thought dungeon lately and this is what I came up with.
 
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Niko

Niko

Student
Oct 4, 2018
112
the cold water analogy is a good one. I've taken cold showers before, intentionally, and there is this palpable trepidation and fear about it before hand. The really interesting thing is that once you start the cold shower it doesn't feel that bad and it actually feels really great... people take it for therapeutic & health reasons.
 
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oggie the weirdo

oggie the weirdo

the one,the only
Nov 7, 2018
15
CTB is like eating a cockroach, you don't necessarily want to do it but you hate yourself and you wanna die so why the fuck not!
 
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Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
978
Sounds about right.
 
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TheLastTrip

TheLastTrip

Experienced
Nov 2, 2018
285
I like the analogy. I hope it won't feel like that when I come to drink my N, but until I have it then that is just conjecture, actually following through is different in reality to just thinking you'll be ok doing it. In my head drinking it is a warm embrace, but we'll see!
 
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