Help CTB in 11 days, is there anything I forgot to take care of?

[MrBrownUpsideD]

I plan on CTB by full-suspension hanging using 12mm polypropylene rope in a secluded forest at night using a slip knot for the noose. I have written a note emphasizing that my death is nobody's fault, acknowledging the kinds of emotions they may be feeling and stating my wish that they seek support. I don't elaborate on my reasons for CTB because I fear it might leave them with even more regrets and questions. I know how I'm going to distribute this note without risking CTB interruption, as well as how I'm going to contact the authorities to minimize the risk of a stranger stumbling upon my corpse. I'm gonna wear a face mask and sunglasses to minimize the risk of people untrained in handling corpses getting traumatized, as well as fasting 24 hours before.

I'm going to try to delete my digital footprint as much as possible to protect the integrity of this forum. I have no inheritance worth distributing on paper. I'm making sure I have no negative interactions with friends that might leave lingering regrets, since humans are quite prone to overestimating their contribution to someone's suicide because of grief.

Is there anything else I'm missing? Also don't bother exclaiming how there is no minimizing the impact of suicide on relatives. I am fully aware of the consequences

 

[Kitsune_BCN]

I'm (I think) a very logical person and all you say makes absolute sense.

Minimizing the impact is probably the most important thing.

Don't overthink it: you are doing it right

Will be thinking of you. Good luck.

 

[darksouls]

however you decide, I hope everything goes well for you and you find the peace you desire

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace.

 

[azelf]

i also plan to ctb in eleven days! good luck :)

 

[MrBrownUpsideD]

i also plan to ctb in eleven days! good luck :)

Woah, death pact! Whatever the outcome may be, I hope you find the peace you are looking for

 

[58Alice85]

good luck mr brown
this world is not what it seems
death is cessation of the bodies movement because what it makes move (you) has left
i will die soon too!
Bless Jesus Christ may he be loved forever

 

[hell toupee]

Hi Mr Brown,

You seem to have everything thoughtfully planned out and all of the variables accounted for. It's truly sad that people who reach a rational conclusion that life is no longer worth living must be forced to go to such extreme measures.

You seem to be very rational about everything and not acting on impulse, which unfortunately some do. In those cases I think it's a mistake. But with people like you all I can do is wish you a peaceful journey.

Death is a doorway, not an ending,

 

[MrBrownUpsideD]

Hi Mr Brown,

You seem to have everything thoughtfully planned out and all of the variables accounted for. It's truly sad that people who reach a rational conclusion that life is no longer worth living must be forced to go to such extreme measures.

You seem to be very rational about everything and not acting on impulse, which unfortunately some do. In those cases I think it's a mistake. But with people like you all I can do is wish you a peaceful journey.

Death is a doorway, not an ending,

I've had more than my fair share of impulsive moments, but I thankfully never acted upon them. Not only does everyone deserve a dignified, peaceful end, but they also deserve a second chance at life getting the help they need through the available resources. In my opinion, you only have one life to live and you should try to make the most of it.

But I've been down that path for a long time now, and I've learned that while life can get easier, for me it will never get truly easy or be worth the pain. I'm tired of holding onto hope like a glowing piece of coal burning my hand every time I try to grab it. Hope isn't a divine intuition or a rational analysis based on the perceived justice of the universe, it's a survival mechanism. Just like most human behavior and cognition.

Hope quickly loses it's appeal when you become mindful of the everyday injustice and cruelty present in the world. Nobody is owed a good life, you have to fight for it. You have to fight for your happiness, even if you aren't guaranteed to succeed. And I'm tired of fighting. Not just tired in my body, but in my soul. So I embrace the long sleep that may never end. I put down my sword and quit the fight I've never consented to participate in. I appreciate the good times I've shared with good people for what they are, because even in this lightless universe there exists kindness and authenticity. Even reducing kindness to a survival mechanism does not take it's beauty away from me, because as a human I do not live in the realm of rationality. I live in the realm of emotions. It's these emotions that not only force me to put down my life, but also help me appreciate the innocence of youth and the joy of companionship. I am grateful to have lived, and I am grateful that I have a choice to put the sword down.